|TheComfortCorner| v.4

[apollo.]

Schools just really got me down lately and I'm busy all the time. There's this sport I tried out for and although I usually really like it, there's been one practice out of 7 that I liked. I'm the youngest there and I'm not the best either. So my partner hates me and completely bailed on me for this game that was scheduled, and different guys just filled in his spot for the different games I played. None of them looked happy about it, and one time the other team and my partner completely pretended I wasn't there and couldn't hear everything they were saying about me :p so not a nice feeling.

I wanted to quit so badly until that one practice I actually had fun at, but its just.... I still feel super alone, and no one on the team knows me, or cares enough to say "hi" to me ever.
Bleh, I didn't get to join 3 of the clubs I wanted to because of the sport, so quitting this means I skipped those clubs for nothing, and I'm not involved in school, but I'm starting to hate this sport, even if I feel like I got a lot better at it. I feel like an outsider there.


Plus I'm just busy all the time now, and I really want to learn how to play the violin, but I don't have a steady job so I don't know if I can pay for it, or even fit it into my schedule. And even if I somehow overcame those two, would my music teacher even let me play it at school? My friend was asking about it and her older sister said that he only let one girl who's been playing the instrument her whole life bring it into school, otherwise you have to play the instruments he gives you, which I'm fine with and all I've just always wanted to learn violin, I think it's so awesome.


Ok, and one more thing. I really want to change up my hair, cut it a little shorter, and dip dye it something like red, or pink and turquoise chunks. I tried it out with temporary stuff, and I love pink and turquoise, but I have incredibly low self esteem, and I don't know if I want that many people staring at me. My face is always so bad acne wise (the last time I didn't have at least 8 zits on my face at any given time was a year ago) and so I don't like it when people look at me. I wish I could change the fact I have such horrible acne, but I'm already doing everything I can, I'm on proactive, and follow every single acne prevention step I can find. I really wish I had a dermatologist, but I don't know if my face is so bad my parents will even consider it anymore, even though I have a million acne scars, my mom lived with much worse, so even though she has sympathy for me, I doubt she cares enough to try to make things better for me than they were for her.


This was probably really dumb, spoiled, and long winded, but I'd be really grateful to anyone who replies. Thanks.

[Violet Stormbringer]

go
away

everyone needs to leave me alone
don't talk to me
because i'll regret responding

and i was doing so well. two days.
guess my lucky streak ends now
the snarling demons have escaped their iron clasped hold
and they're clawing at my remaining sanity
happy halloween
because you're about to be trick-or-treated
and i don't think you'll like the treats you brewed

im just so tired

[FoxerOwl]

life is just hard
drama and bullcrap everyday and no one gives a damn about you, only themselves

i went from happy to sad and crying my eyes out in .3 seconds
why did she have to die...

[mandalorian]

i just need a hug.

[Thalassic]

██✧██

I wake up and literally the first thing I hear is my parents talking about how awful I am.
I'm sorry I just
I try
Why can't you see that I try
Why am I never good enough..
Why can't even you, of all people just.. love me..

[buddha -]

██✧██

I wake up and literally the first thing I hear is my parents talking about how awful I am.
I'm sorry I just
I try
Why can't you see that I try
Why am I never good enough..
Why can't even you, of all people just.. love me..



you're good enough. so what if they're your parents? you are you, even if you fail to meet expectations - and you know what. yolo. dang the law it's your life do whatever you want. and i think you're cool. zanjux you're cool. you're cool amen.

[Dylan Klebold]

go ahead, ignore me

it's not like it's that important

[apollo.]

Schools just really got me down lately and I'm busy all the time. There's this sport I tried out for and although I usually really like it, there's been one practice out of 7 that I liked. I'm the youngest there and I'm not the best either. So my partner hates me and completely bailed on me for this game that was scheduled, and different guys just filled in his spot for the different games I played. None of them looked happy about it, and one time the other team and my partner completely pretended I wasn't there and couldn't hear everything they were saying about me :p so not a nice feeling.

I wanted to quit so badly until that one practice I actually had fun at, but its just.... I still feel super alone, and no one on the team knows me, or cares enough to say "hi" to me ever.
Bleh, I didn't get to join 3 of the clubs I wanted to because of the sport, so quitting this means I skipped those clubs for nothing, and I'm not involved in school, but I'm starting to hate this sport, even if I feel like I got a lot better at it. I feel like an outsider there.


Plus I'm just busy all the time now, and I really want to learn how to play the violin, but I don't have a steady job so I don't know if I can pay for it, or even fit it into my schedule. And even if I somehow overcame those two, would my music teacher even let me play it at school? My friend was asking about it and her older sister said that he only let one girl who's been playing the instrument her whole life bring it into school, otherwise you have to play the instruments he gives you, which I'm fine with and all I've just always wanted to learn violin, I think it's so awesome.


Ok, and one more thing. I really want to change up my hair, cut it a little shorter, and dip dye it something like red, or pink and turquoise chunks. I tried it out with temporary stuff, and I love pink and turquoise, but I have incredibly low self esteem, and I don't know if I want that many people staring at me. My face is always so bad acne wise (the last time I didn't have at least 8 zits on my face at any given time was a year ago) and so I don't like it when people look at me. I wish I could change the fact I have such horrible acne, but I'm already doing everything I can, I'm on proactive, and follow every single acne prevention step I can find. I really wish I had a dermatologist, but I don't know if my face is so bad my parents will even consider it anymore, even though I have a million acne scars, my mom lived with much worse, so even though she has sympathy for me, I doubt she cares enough to try to make things better for me than they were for her.


This was probably really dumb, spoiled, and long winded, but I'd be really grateful to anyone who replies. Thanks.

[ProudHufflepuff]

Ohh my god...I want to throw my sister out a window or something
My grandmother got us each a magazine and my sister hates One Direction and 5 Seconds of Summer so I asked for the posters cause I knew she was gonna destroy them while I actually keep them and appreciate them and then she draws all over all their pictures just to annoy me...
So I went down to get my magazine and she had it and was holding a marker and SHE DREW ALL OVER THE PICTURES AND EVERYTHING in MY magazine. I got really mad and she started crying and my mom yells at ME! If she had been more careful and looked inside to see if it was the one she had already drawn it wouldn't have happened! If she hadnt just been doin it to annoy me it wouldn't have happened! It's not my fault!
I'm really upset now cause they are my heros and now they have insults drawn all over them and idk I'm so done

[--I am Sherlocked--]

I'm starting to get a really big fear of heights and I don't know what to do. ;-;

Even just going up a small flight of stairs is starting to scare me. I don't know why, maybe partially because of fear of falling, falling yourself and what not. And I even live in a flat with four flights of steps, too... o.o

I go to a school with like four flights of stairs and just.... It is scaring me.


Ugh. Someone help.

*sighs*