|TheComfortCorner| v.4

[snowflake ;;]

Oh my gosh..I'm not like sad, just frustrated and upset...I just finished some huge line edits one this thing, and it quits on me? Really?! ;-;

[Kittehhcat]

I feel like I'm alone in my life.
I have friends online, but about 5 in real life.
Only 1 knows me.
But..
When you get down to it,
none of my friends know what to think about me.
I bet they think I'm some girl who is just happy happy every day.
Sometimes I just feel like slamming my door. .-.

[control freak.]

x --- snipped for personal reasons.

[~Faith~]

I had to get a tetanus shot today because I stepped on a rusty nail in the dorms, such a pleasant experience I must tell you.

So while I was waiting for it to happen the nurse who was going to give me the tetanus shot was like : "Are you afraid of needles? If so, you aren't going to faint on me are you?" Of course I was being honest and I was like 'Yeah, I don't like needles at all, I had a bad experience when I was younger. But no, I'm not going to faint."

She was fine with that, got the needle ready, and she dropped it on my arm which went right into my elbow. I'm not joking, so I shrieked loudly and my boyfriend who had come with me just casually pulls it out of my arm and hands it to the nurse and is like : 'Well good one, now she's not even going to let you get another needle near her." I laughed, at that because he was being sarcastic and knows me to well. But now my arm hurts and I'm still shaking from that experience. It's just like : "Do you not know what you're doing? Don't drop a needle on me like that again."

First time I've ever had a nurse drop a needle on me and have that happen. But my gods, I'm still traumatized from what happened today. I'm already not a big fan of needles, but this, this was seriously a little overboard for my taste. I can barely feel my arm now, and can even barely manage typing this reply, but oh well I'll survive now that this experience is over and done with. Never going to step on a rusty nail again.

The nurse did manage to get another needle in my arm, yet I'm still in shock from what happened. I just can't believe my luck at the moment. Yesterday walking into the wrong class which was more embarrassing than anything else that's happened to me so far this year, lol. Just a typical unlucky day for poor old me.

[Dylan Klebold]

go ahead, ignore me

it's not like it's that important

[bluebell.]

a few days ago i became sick,
and now its even worse.
my throat feels like its being stabbed by a million needles.
i cant speak, and if i do it burns.
i want the pain to stop.
pills don't help.

this is just so freaking frustrating
ugh

[GIGABITE]

Everyone is ignoring me D:

[Spotted.Newt]

I feel like I'm alone in my life.
I have friends online, but about 5 in real life.
Only 1 knows me.
But..
When you get down to it,
none of my friends know what to think about me.
I bet they think I'm some girl who is just happy happy every day.
Sometimes I just feel like slamming my door. .-.

I feel very similar...

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Rant time for me.

I'm always such a positive, upbeat person in school. I always try to be cheerful, I try not to let things manly me. And when they do, I try not to show it. I joke around with my few friends, like a normal person. The thing is, I have realized that they all just see me as a joke.
Literally.
They take everything I say as a joke. They 'playfully' insult me in some way every freaking time I see them. Which is all the time, since we are in school together. It is starting to annoy me. The insults are light and somewhat playful, but my friends actually mean the things they say even if they say them in a playful way. The figure I won't mind, because I don't get offended or insulted easily. Plus, I know they don't actually want to hurt me. They probably don't have anyone else they can constantly insult without being punched.
But still, do you really have to comment on everything I do, say, wear, comment on, etc?
I have decent self esteem, but I do worry about what other people think sometimes. It's natural behavior. So I don't need you to make fun of my outfit today. I may not be as fashionable as you, but so what? It's not like I wear terrible looking clothes. Thank you for telling me my shirt that was a gift from my aunt is an eyesore. I already was nervous about wearing it to school, for that exact reason. I think it looks nice, but I still worry.
You didn't need to tell me that because I happen to have a pink backpack, coat, lunch bag, and shirt makes me look like a dumb preschooler. The color coordination was completely an accident. I don't even like pink that much.
I literally worry every day what people think of my color scheme because of those comments.
I can't even tell you anything serious about my life. At first, I had thought you guys would be my best friends, the ones that I could share my secrets with. I thought you would be like the friends I had at my old school, before I moved here last year. I guess not, because I reveal one pice of personal info to you and the next thing I know you make it a big joke in front of the entire class. Thanks, I really needed that. Trust completely destroyed.


I do have this one new friend, who I can share secrets with. She doesn't make fun of me, and i think she is relieved to find that I don't make fun of her.
I was talking to her about a project we are doing on personality, and how people act differently in different scenarios. I commented how I wasn't sure what my true personality was, and she felt the same way. My other friend buds in and says to me "your personality is being annoying." Yep, I really needed to hear that. It's not like I worry about annoying people or anything. It's not like I'm afraid to talk too much in case people view me as weird or annoying or bossy.

I also happen to dislike sharing friends. Perhaps it is because I have so few, I worry about losing them and being left alone. Again. I have lost friends before because someone else was 'better' than me.
Naturally, when I find a good friend or two I want to hang out with them. I want to be able to chat with them at lunch or work with them during study hall. I want to be able to walk to class together and talk. I really don't talk much, so these moments when I do are important to me. I value time I spend talking with my friends.
But they don't value it as much. I understand that they have other friends unlike me, but that doesn't mean they should completely ignore me at times while they talk to someone else and leave me feeling like the third wheel. At lunch, one of the first friends I mentioned didn't speak a word to me the entire time. They talked to their other friend, whom they invited to sit with us. I awkwardly sat there in silence.

Wow, sorry for the long rant. I'll probably delete it later. See, these rants are the kinds of things I can only express on CS due to the reasons listed in my rant.

[★ nirvana,]

I had to get a tetanus shot today because I stepped on a rusty nail in the dorms, such a pleasant experience I must tell you.

So while I was waiting for it to happen the nurse who was going to give me the tetanus shot was like : "Are you afraid of needles? If so, you aren't going to faint on me are you?" Of course I was being honest and I was like 'Yeah, I don't like needles at all, I had a bad experience when I was younger. But no, I'm not going to faint."

She was fine with that, got the needle ready, and she dropped it on my arm which went right into my elbow. I'm not joking, so I shrieked loudly and my boyfriend who had come with me just casually pulls it out of my arm and hands it to the nurse and is like : 'Well good one, now she's not even going to let you get another needle near her." I laughed, at that because he was being sarcastic and knows me to well. But now my arm hurts and I'm still shaking from that experience. It's just like : "Do you not know what you're doing? Don't drop a needle on me like that again."

First time I've ever had a nurse drop a needle on me and have that happen. But my gods, I'm still traumatized from what happened today. I'm already not a big fan of needles, but this, this was seriously a little overboard for my taste. I can barely feel my arm now, and can even barely manage typing this reply, but oh well I'll survive now that this experience is over and done with. Never going to step on a rusty nail again.

The nurse did manage to get another needle in my arm, yet I'm still in shock from what happened. I just can't believe my luck at the moment. Yesterday walking into the wrong class which was more embarrassing than anything else that's happened to me so far this year, lol. Just a typical unlucky day for poor old me.

*hugs* I feel you. I hate needles as well. I have very bad veins, so the nurse often has to stick me more than once before anything can get achieved. At one point, when they needed to get an IV in me so that they could put that contrast dye stuff they put in you during a CT scan inside me, they had to stick me FIVE times. One of my veins collapsed, too. When your vein collapses, it starts to bleed uncontrollably -- my own blood literally started to pool on the floor. ;-;

[Kittehhcat]

I feel like I'm alone in my life.
I have friends online, but about 5 in real life.
Only 1 knows me.
But..
When you get down to it,
none of my friends know what to think about me.
I bet they think I'm some girl who is just happy happy every day.
Sometimes I just feel like slamming my door. .-.

I feel very similar...

____________________________________________________________________________

Rant time for me.

I'm always such a positive, upbeat person in school. I always try to be cheerful, I try not to let things manly me. And when they do, I try not to show it. I joke around with my few friends, like a normal person. The thing is, I have realized that they all just see me as a joke.
Literally.
They take everything I say as a joke. They 'playfully' insult me in some way every freaking time I see them. Which is all the time, since we are in school together. It is starting to annoy me. The insults are light and somewhat playful, but my friends actually mean the things they say even if they say them in a playful way. The figure I won't mind, because I don't get offended or insulted easily. Plus, I know they don't actually want to hurt me. They probably don't have anyone else they can constantly insult without being punched.
But still, do you really have to comment on everything I do, say, wear, comment on, etc?
I have decent self esteem, but I do worry about what other people think sometimes. It's natural behavior. So I don't need you to make fun of my outfit today. I may not be as fashionable as you, but so what? It's not like I wear terrible looking clothes. Thank you for telling me my shirt that was a gift from my aunt is an eyesore. I already was nervous about wearing it to school, for that exact reason. I think it looks nice, but I still worry.
You didn't need to tell me that because I happen to have a pink backpack, coat, lunch bag, and shirt makes me look like a dumb preschooler. The color coordination was completely an accident. I don't even like pink that much.
I literally worry every day what people think of my color scheme because of those comments.
I can't even tell you anything serious about my life. At first, I had thought you guys would be my best friends, the ones that I could share my secrets with. I thought you would be like the friends I had at my old school, before I moved here last year. I guess not, because I reveal one pice of personal info to you and the next thing I know you make it a big joke in front of the entire class. Thanks, I really needed that. Trust completely destroyed.


I do have this one new friend, who I can share secrets with. She doesn't make fun of me, and i think she is relieved to find that I don't make fun of her.
I was talking to her about a project we are doing on personality, and how people act differently in different scenarios. I commented how I wasn't sure what my true personality was, and she felt the same way. My other friend buds in and says to me "your personality is being annoying." Yep, I really needed to hear that. It's not like I worry about annoying people or anything. It's not like I'm afraid to talk too much in case people view me as weird or annoying or bossy.

I also happen to dislike sharing friends. Perhaps it is because I have so few, I worry about losing them and being left alone. Again. I have lost friends before because someone else was 'better' than me.
Naturally, when I find a good friend or two I want to hang out with them. I want to be able to chat with them at lunch or work with them during study hall. I want to be able to walk to class together and talk. I really don't talk much, so these moments when I do are important to me. I value time I spend talking with my friends.
But they don't value it as much. I understand that they have other friends unlike me, but that doesn't mean they should completely ignore me at times while they talk to someone else and leave me feeling like the third wheel. At lunch, one of the first friends I mentioned didn't speak a word to me the entire time. They talked to their other friend, whom they invited to sit with us. I awkwardly sat there in silence.

Wow, sorry for the long rant. I'll probably delete it later. See, these rants are the kinds of things I can only express on CS due to the reasons listed in my rant.

I feel sorry for you. ._.
But..
Friends shouldn't make fun of friends..
Unless everyone is laughing and no one feels hurt.. Its okay.
I would love to talk to you in pm if you want.. .w.

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I'm just don't get it.
Why do you guys leave me behind..
Why do you dance over there and act like I have some deadly illness?
Why do you talk about your school and how crappy it is behind your principles back?
Why do you tell others to shappup?.. Why?

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*Changed names for privacy.
Let's pretend there was a girl named Leigh.
Leigh was a girl who was in dance, but didn't want to grow up as a dancer.
Leigh was never talked to.
She only had a few friends.
Leigh was always depressed, but joyful on the outside.
Her family loved her, but none of them could help her.
Leigh was never popular now, but she was when she was younger.
Leigh was worse than the new dancers.
Leigh was always wanting to improve, but couldn't.
It was like Leigh's skill was stuck.

Leigh wants advice.
I do too.