by Tanetane » Sat Jun 14, 2014 1:49 pm
i suck at writing
why would i even bother making a story for my characters?
they're just pretty things i look at and draw sometimes
i like their personalities but they will never be developed characters
i'm just finally accepting this now
no, they're not good characters and they're not developed.
I just like them. They're for me only.
it's time i stop trying to show them off to get approval
when that's not what i need at all.
i'm done with making stories.
Insomnia will never be finished.
I work hard on writing something yet i lose to motivation to finish
it's not fun, so why did i even bother? Because i wanted to write well?
I can't force myself to be something i'm not going to be
and i'm going to stop talking about a story that really isn't there
no more backstories
they never go anywhere
so what's the point?
just a bunch of figureheads. That's all my characters have ever been. Pretty figureheads.
no one will care that much anyway. anyone who says they do is a liar and i don't want to hear it
i just want them to be fun and interesting again
that's what i want.
being imaginative is boring now
how can that be a thing
i want to still be able to imagine all these stories
with all this lore and details within
something i could always build upon
now i just don't care and let myself go dull
do i get rid of my characters and start over? i'm so tired of all of them, every single one of them,
what do i do? i'm sick of even looking at them but yet i'm still unsure if i really want to get rid of them
i could never have them back if i did, it would be unfair...
i dunno. i think i need a break...

I'm Tane, I'm over 18 and I prefer gender neutral pronouns (they/them)