by Dumezil » Tue May 20, 2014 12:18 pm
Why the hell did I even come home this summer.
I have zero desire to do anything now. All I look forward to is sleeping at night. I don't even feel like roleplaying anymore.
I get up to go to work and get screamed at about how "disgusting" I am while my mom makes vomiting noises (pretending she's actually gagging" because my pants from four years ago are a little tight on the way out the door. WOW. YES. PEOPLE CAN GAIN WEIGHT IN FOUR YEARS GOING FROM TEENAGER TO ADULT. ALSO THANKS, ALL THAT WEIGHT IS WHAT I GAINED AS THE RESULT OF NOT EATING AND BEING HOSPITALIZED FOR IT. I go to work, go to the library and to work out despite my mother having yelled and caused multiple issues about gas money (it's my money, I will spend it on gas if it gets me out of this hellhole) then come home hours later to nasty comments about whatever I look like or whatever I ate or my workout not being good enough or something I did last year.
I come home and it is constant screaming about what we HAVE to do and then screaming about how we'll never do it because she doesn't trust any of us and we are disgusting and pathetic with zero drive and it goes on and on in hysterics for hours and doesn't stop until she goes to bed sobbing and my little brother is a little troll he doesn't even try to play the stupid hellish game and my sisters and other brothers just lock themselves in the room. I got slapped the other day, in my twenties mind you, because I hadn't taken my laundry down yet. I had just changed and it was on my bed when she charged in swinging, flipped my bed, dumped out all my baskets, threw things, and screamed in hysterics how repulsive I am.
The KIDS are tearing the family apart, mom? Really? REALLY? If this was a day or two out of the week okay. No. This is literally every day. Just calm the hell down already and stop screaming and I swear if I get slapped again for something stupid I'm taking off and not coming back for a couple of days. This is dumb as hell.