by 0000007 » Tue Apr 08, 2014 3:08 pm
What is wrong with me. Everything i do.. i find it wrong.
My arms still hurt, my knees still hurt after a week and than i start weight room at school.
I act like the pains not there. I'm so used to acting i keep all my pain inside. And it hurts.
But it doesn't look like it. My father still never gets to see me, even when he moved twenty min. away.
My uncle- my inspiration to everything- is still away and i keep dreaming of him.
My grades i know are lowering, and I'm trying, but I'm so discouraged and distracted.
I know i have deppression and anxiety yet i can't speak to the consular, because I'm too scared.
I need the help before i do anything stupid. But i don't know what to do.
It's so stuipid. Why can't i be... just? Not me. I wish i could just go crawl in a hole in die.
//breathes slowly
End of small life rant