by tawnypelt3 » Mon Apr 07, 2014 11:29 pm
Thank the stars the curtains are finally up and I never have to touch them again. I couldn't stand one more day of both my mother and my oma chattering away brainlessly over some stupid problem for far too many minutes that I then fixed in two seconds flat. Much less how they refuse to listen to a word I say when I'm trying to explain something or say something that is extremely relevant to whatever crap they're spewing on about. Much less how they're constantly judging everything I do or don't do.... And how I look, how I dress, how I keep my hair, how I sit, how I walk, how I brush my teeth, how I eat, what I eat, how much I eat, the list goes on forever.
Unfortunately, my mother's day off is tomorrow. That probably means Oma will be over again, for absolutely no reason. And of course she'll bring the damn bum, who will treat everything and everyone like garbage and do sick, twisted things to my pets. Can't wait.
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Was trying to edit my super secret storage post, and I actually had to type "I forgot."
I forgot his naaaaaaaaaame, I forgot his naaaaaaaaaaame, dear god I forgot his name I am such a terrible person.
One of my two official betas at the moment and I forgot his name. ;___________;
I didn't make a list of all our names because there can be no evidence, but obviously that was a really stupid idea.
I am piling way too much onto my plate. I mean, first it was just this normal, one, single, ONLY, UNO, LESS THAN TWO, PARTICULAR project, and now it's expanding into the main thing (planned to begin far, far in the future when I actually have the skills to do it honorably) with a prequel (which I am doing myself, with my ghost team, haha), and there's all this PLOT, endless PLOT, and then maybe the promise of more later on because I am a glutton for punishment, an absolute glutton! And I still have at least one of the physical projects, and dear god why do I torture myself WHY? I'm trying to plan too far ahead, trying to meticulously map out every little detail like it will all fall neatly into place. I have the determination to make it happen, but there are still outside influences. I can only predict other people's reactions to a certain and utterly fixed extent. We've been over this before, self; having such complicated and long-lasting plans almost invariably ends in failure, or at least a complete botching of the plan and thus forcing me to have to scrap it and adapt a new plan anyway.
I haven't even actually learned anything yet. I still have rendering and compressing to tackle, as well. What an idiot I am.
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I was hacked. Not going to remake all my groups and such unless I feel like it. That's a lotta work. Don't bother with trades, everything's a mess.
Need:

Will offer
reasonable overpay.
.Note to self:
Reduce idiot level.
