sleekyscool wrote:Lintto wrote:I have no friends. Seriously, there is no one online or offline that knows I exist. I had one friend who treated me poorly because I needed to vent, my dad's death anniversary is in a few days so I've been depressed. She told me she didn't understand why I was venting and that she didn't want to be in the middle -basically I was bothering her. I thought I had a friend here...but it turns out they were hoping I'd leave and give them the few pets they were missing that I managed to snag. When I said I was keeping those pets of I ever took a break I was ignored.
So now here I sit thinking about my crummy existence. I've done nothing important or anything to make someone proud. I'm anti social due to intense bullying..and seriously the only time anyone wants me is to talk to my mom because she's not answering her phone.
I wish I'd been born a different person. Smarter, more socially acceptable..
That's the way you are and it's ok to be depressed that your father died. That's normal and you are a smart person to realize your friend was just using you. And somewhere in this world there are always two people who love you.
Sadly in my family it's not okay. Here it is 530am where I live and because I wasn't kissing that friends butt while she was here a bit ago I am getting reamed for being a loser and anti social. I didn't talk to her, she was mean to me days ago and it hurt my feelings so why talk to her when I know how she truly feels? My mom's telling me that I need help because I have no friends. She always tells me there is something wrong that I do not fit in, but this is who I am. I don't know how to make myself fit in anymore. I don't know how to talk about the cool things everyone else talks about, I'm awkward..I try but I can't do it. I cant, it's impossible.
