|TheComfortCorner| v.3

[eleutheromaniac.]

My problem is probably a lot smaller than others, so I'm sorry.

But I am getting really lonely. I have friends, i have family. But I'm reading books about girls and guys, and I'm realizing I want somebody who is always there. Who raps their arm around me when I'm sad. Who kisses me gently and I don't forget about. Someone who responds right when I text them, no matter what the time is. I have good friends, but sometimes girls get annoying, so I take a break, but I have no one to go to. I want to do something. Something important, but their is nothing to do. I want my life to be exiting. But instead, my chest is hollow, and pure loneliness is eating my insides. I feel like I have no purpose.

[Peppercorn]

I have been accepted into a gifted arts school. I don't want to tell anyone I know but I also am very happy. My thoughts on people crushing on me blow me away, I'm a pure jerk with acne, scars, freckles, dyed hair and excessive piercings. I feel like leaving everything and staying in my bed hugging my kitten.

[condition terminal]

I feel like Im being left out. I can feel it. I'm slowly drifting away from my family. It's been so hard. I can now stay in my room on the Internet the whole day. I never share stuff with my mom. My sister and I were close. It's breaking I know. I'm getting less active and less talkative. I don't know. I'm eating less. I am very sad. I don't know. Why is this? I can't even open to my family anymore! My mom is getting mad at everything I do! I feel worthless. I do everything wrong. Seriously what's the point...

[vaska]

Aww hun xx I'm so sorry,
I don't know what to tell you, all I can say is my inbox is always open, :)
xxxx

[心の血]

I really need a hug now...
I actually feel like I spend my life on the internet, because the real world is so mean. At least there are places like this online, where everyone is nice. At home, I'm basically screwed •~•
And I feel really bad, because when I tell anyone about my "problems" I've only ever been told to stop being such a selfish idiot, and that other people matter too. Before Christmas, I was really depressed: everything I did was bad, it seemed, and I think it was mostly my family, but absolutely anything that I messed up got picked up on, and I just felt so stupid, like I couldn't do anything right. Then at Christmas, I won these prizes, and people started taking notice again. I mean, do I have to be SMART for anyone to care?

And now, I just had the best weekend with my dad (he lives separate to us, but he came over to babysit), but now he's left, and I'm getting picked up on everything. It was bad before (again) but it's getting even worse. I told my mum I wanted to try out Lolita fashion, and I'd found all these outfits and done a load of research, and even saved up, but she had another massive go at me before telling me it was a stupid fancy dress thing that I wouldn't be able to wear and that wasn't suitable for anything, and just that I could never get into that sort of thing.
And now, since my dad left, she's started being mean again. When something breaks, it's my fault, or I never put enough effort in, or I'm just not good enough. My brother comes home with these test results, and if it's over 80%, that's amazing, lets text everyone and tell them how well he's done. And (this isn't to boast or anything, just to make a point), I've got top marks or near enough in EVERY SINGLE TEST so far this year (out of my class), and full marks in about 5 different subjects, and that is not good enough. I still suck.

But I feel like none of it even matters because nobody cares anyway. And when I tell anyone, they tell me I'm being a selfish idiot or that I simply don't look at other peoples point of view. I don't want ridiculous praise, in fact, I hate it, but a little recognition would be great, just so I don't feel worthless all the time. I just get dismissed and I feel really bad, as if I don't deserve any of what I'm getting. I don't want to be PRAISED, I just want to be NOTICED for once, is that too much to ask?

Sorry, this probably isn't that important. Thank you for reading anyways. I love you all, CS, for helping me to escape people and go somewhere where everyone has a kind thing to stay. Sorry...

[0000007]

I really need a hug now...
I actually feel like I spend my life on the internet, because the real world is so mean. At least there are places like this online, where everyone is nice. At home, I'm basically screwed •~•
And I feel really bad, because when I tell anyone about my "problems" I've only ever been told to stop being such a selfish idiot, and that other people matter too. Before Christmas, I was really depressed: everything I did was bad, it seemed, and I think it was mostly my family, but absolutely anything that I messed up got picked up on, and I just felt so stupid, like I couldn't do anything right. Then at Christmas, I won these prizes, and people started taking notice again. I mean, do I have to be SMART for anyone to care?

And now, I just had the best weekend with my dad (he lives separate to us, but he came over to babysit), but now he's left, and I'm getting picked up on everything. It was bad before (again) but it's getting even worse. I told my mum I wanted to try out Lolita fashion, and I'd found all these outfits and done a load of research, and even saved up, but she had another massive go at me before telling me it was a stupid fancy dress thing that I wouldn't be able to wear and that wasn't suitable for anything, and just that I could never get into that sort of thing.
And now, since my dad left, she's started being mean again. When something breaks, it's my fault, or I never put enough effort in, or I'm just not good enough. My brother comes home with these test results, and if it's over 80%, that's amazing, lets text everyone and tell them how well he's done. And (this isn't to boast or anything, just to make a point), I've got top marks or near enough in EVERY SINGLE TEST so far this year (out of my class), and full marks in about 5 different subjects, and that is not good enough. I still suck.

But I feel like none of it even matters because nobody cares anyway. And when I tell anyone, they tell me I'm being a selfish idiot or that I simply don't look at other peoples point of view. I don't want ridiculous praise, in fact, I hate it, but a little recognition would be great, just so I don't feel worthless all the time. I just get dismissed and I feel really bad, as if I don't deserve any of what I'm getting. I don't want to be PRAISED, I just want to be NOTICED for once, is that too much to ask?

Sorry, this probably isn't that important. Thank you for reading anyways. I love you all, CS, for helping me to escape people and go somewhere where everyone has a kind thing to stay. Sorry...

Hey, everything's important, you might not see it in yourself but you have meaning. -hugs- i understand. Not sure what more to say, other than keep your grades up unlike me. I dropped school on the floor and crushed it, not exactly on intention. But you gotta good future. Hang in their, depression can really suck, i know, but just stay strong <3
And we all need an escape. Mostly people on CSs is the internet, don't worry about it, but try other things too

[心の血]

Hey, everything's important, you might not see it in yourself but you have meaning. -hugs- i understand. Not sure what more to say, other than keep your grades up unlike me. I dropped school on the floor and crushed it, not exactly on intention. But you gotta good future. Hang in their, depression can really suck, i know, but just stay strong <3
And we all need an escape. Mostly people on CSs is the internet, don't worry about it, but try other things too

Thank you so much, that's really made my day!
*Hugs back*

[0000007]

Hey, everything's important, you might not see it in yourself but you have meaning. -hugs- i understand. Not sure what more to say, other than keep your grades up unlike me. I dropped school on the floor and crushed it, not exactly on intention. But you gotta good future. Hang in their, depression can really suck, i know, but just stay strong <3
And we all need an escape. Mostly people on CSs is the internet, don't worry about it, but try other things too

Thank you so much, that's really made my day!
*Hugs back*

Glad i could! ^^
If you ever want to talk or rant or just clear your mind my pms are open as well!
Your not alone, and no one should feel like it. That goes to all of you!
I think it's about time to go to bed now though.. it being 4:00 am. //sigh.

[Thalassic]

██★██ Sigh, I was woken up by a ping pong ball hitting my face.
Thanks, dad.

[0000007]

I wish i would just die or get really hurt so that i wouldn't have to feel like crap everyday.
Because of school. And everything.