I just over heard my mom talking about meeting up with some guy..I know shes cheated on my father multiple times in the past, but I thought she was done, apparently not. I wish they'd just get divorced already, its clear they're only together because of me and my younger sisters. Besides, i'm tired of her drinking! Every night, she gets wasted then stumbles around the house, slurring her words and acting like a child. Then when shes sober, she expects me to respect her? No. I lost all respect for her many years ago along with my trust. I wish I could move out, but i'm still too young. Besides, where would I go? I'm a high school drop out whos best grade was a D, if I was lucky. No one would hire me, so how would I get money to buy a place to live? I'd end up on the streets, and I don't want to end up like that. Oh, and did I not mention that fact that both my mother and father are stupidly religious and are constantly tell me i'm going to "down there" just because I don't have the same believes as them and that i'm bisexual, heavily leaning towards being lesbian? Yep. Whenever the subject comes up, they tell me to "Shut up", "Stop saying stuff like that" or "You know you're going to 'insert H word here', right?"
Sorry for the semi-long rant guys, I just feel like total crap right now. I feel worthless. I feel like just running away. I think I honestly would if I had somewhere to go, but if I tried going to any family, they'd just call up my parents and send me home. Friends wouldn't work either, I've only got one and her father is the same as my parents. I'm just in desperate need of a hug right now, and while i'd love a real life one, a virtual one would work too..