|TheComfortCorner| v.3

[leverage]

Everything is slowly but surely crashing down. Everything.

On Monday, my aunt went in for a surgery that was supposed to fix all her problems. The doctors found cancer. Pancreatic cancer. She has months left.
She was supposed to feel all better, but no. The universe apparently had a different plan.
But that's not the extent of the problem by any means.

Just over a year ago, my Grandmother passed away from a very deadly form of pancreatic cancer. It turns out ut runs in families, putting my mother, my cousin, and me at extremely high risk.

This cancer is pulling my family apart. When my grandma was sick, I didn't see my mother for weeks, and when I did see her, she was screaming at me. Now, its happening again, and I feel like I'm losing her as well.

Its just my dad; my brother, and me, it seems, but my father isn't exactly the comforting type, and my brother doesn't know what's going on.

I know exactly what's going on, so I spend the majority of the day in my room with my door closed. Apparently, my parents think that I'm in 'my own little world' and don't care about anything. Well, excuse me, your the one who screams at me whenever uou see me.

Last night, I received the first letter from thr area where I used to live in years. It was my old friend's mother. It turns out my friend took her own life. I hadn't seen her in years, but it still hurts.

A friend of mine was in an abusive relationship, where he kept threatening to kill himself. I was the one to tell thr counselor. The guy wants to kill whoever said anything, but he doesn't know it was me. But I'm scared he'll find out. If he does, I know he'll come after me.

I spend ever hour juggling grades, band, activities. I lost my grandma, was bullied out of an elementary school, don't fit in, and I'm a crippled teenager. Can't the universe just give me a break? Please?

I feel like I'm juggling eggs, tons of them. And if I drop one, I will surely slip and drop them all.

[urie]

I feel like no one even bothers to talk to me on here anymore. I feel like you all are playing a game called ignore Canada.! I get bullied on here and I feel like such an outcast. No one comments on my art. No one cares. I cry about this and feel so...left out. I'm ugly. I'm stupid. I'm nothing. You are all something. Tell me...WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG!? ;^;

Just because no one comments on your art, doesn't mean they don't like it, or they ignore it. Think about it; there must be oooh around 50 random pieces of art submitted to beginners/sketches and experiments every day, and lots in the intermediate and maybe even a few in Advanced. Over all, someone will get left out along the line. No one talks to me except for a couple of friends from here, but again no one can answer everyone's problems. Loved ones passing away, bullying, ranting and more all have to be answered as well as your problems. I don't mind this - they have other people to care about not just me.
Report, block and foe the bullies. Don't be scared to report/foe, even if they threaten '' Oh if you report me I'll find you'' etc, it's not going to happen and it's probably some immature kids from my age winding people up.
We're not all 'something' on here, take a look around. Maybe helping other people will help you feel better about yourself?

[eli ayase]

UGH

you said you were going to do most of the work over the weekend, I already doubted that.

Guess what?

I was right. Its freaking Sunday. We should have finished the damn project.

I even reminded you and guess what? I was left to do all the work. Thanks. Really; what a way to spend my weekend.

its monday now. you haven't done a thing.

[leslie knope]

I am selfish.
so terribly selfish.
but I need to say it.
I am sick
rough day
sadness comes and goes
I want to do good but don't have the strength
...
....
I was pissed
sad
happy
sad
on and off
I want something good to happen to me

I like getting gifted

i cant stand how selfish that was. i needed to get it out though.
poop

[wander]

so, we had to give away my dog to the AHS. he wasn't doing very well, and we didn't have enough time to take care of him. I really liked him though, he was a great dog, and I'll really miss him. I just don't want him to think he was a bad puppy, though, because he wasnt, it wasn't his fault we had to give him away... and now i feel super sad. could i have a cookie? or even possibly a gift? nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, that was selfish of me.

[My Immortal]

Worst day... ever

[starfin]

I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack.
I need some body to pm me, I just dont feel like posting it on here.

[Frosttheleopard]

I just want to scream right now...

[apollo.]

that is it, i can barely trust anyone on cs anymore. i'm taking a very very long break, and it'll just be luck if i come back. i can't trust a soul on here, because 90% of the people are to ignorant and self center to recognize they're talking to actual people.

It's like that pretty much everywhere online. Society in general has gone down a lot, and this sites getting more controlling, that changes some of the people, but I think cs isn't actually all that bad.
I'll be sad to see you go, but don't leave just because of a few ignorant people, not everyone is like that, and this site can be pretty fun. Don't leave because a few people ruined the game for you, leave because you want to taking in all factors, and everything positive about this site.

I am selfish.
so terribly selfish.
but I need to say it.
I am sick
rough day
sadness comes and goes
I want to do good but don't have the strength
...
....
I was pissed
sad
happy
sad
on and off
I want something good to happen to me

I like getting gifted

i cant stand how selfish that was. i needed to get it out though.
poop

Sorry you had a bad day. It happens to all of us once in a while. Who doesn't like getting gifted, everyone does, the truth about humans is that we are selfish. Deep down we all are.
Try talking to a friend, or maybe doing something fun and getting out, that can help a lot. Focus on the good stuff in life whenever you get sad, and is there a councilor you can talk to maybe? They might be able to help with the mood swings.

so, we had to give away my dog to the AHS. he wasn't doing very well, and we didn't have enough time to take care of him. I really liked him though, he was a great dog, and I'll really miss him. I just don't want him to think he was a bad puppy, though, because he wasnt, it wasn't his fault we had to give him away... and now i feel super sad. could i have a cookie? or even possibly a gift? nevermind, nevermind, nevermind, that was selfish of me.

*Hugs*
He'll find a better home. One that will take good care of him, and make sure he's ok and spend enough time with him. It's not your fault, you just didn't have enough time to take care of him, that's no ones fault. He'll be fine, the AHS will make sure he gets a grat home.

I just want to scream right now...

Why? Do you need to pm me?

Worst day... ever

Do you want to pm me so we can talk?

[Max]

Well, I did it.
I told Connor I like him.
He said he likes me too
I was super pumped at first,
But now... Everything so awkward!
I can't even have a proper conversation with him anymore.
I remember I used to be able to tell him anything
I could act like myself in front of him
He doesn't care what I look like
He doesn't care my hair easily gets messy
He doesn't care I don't wear mascara
He doesn't care my nails are bitten
He doesn't care.
I guess that's what I liked most about him
But now.. Everything's different.
We're always quiet around eachother
I wish we could go back
To being friends again
But he knows I like him
He knows I know he likes me
What if it never returns to normal?
I'm so depressed :c