UnicornDoingDressage wrote:Katie Cat wrote:Things haven't been going to well for me, and even though I hate posting here, I need to get a few things off my chest...
I'm starting to believe that I have anxiety disorder, and I can't stop worrying over every little thing. There's too much pressure, and I just can't do it. Ever since my brother started failing school, I've been expected to be the good child and receive only straight A's every marking period. I'm criticized to no end if I bring home a B, and I just can't take it anymore. To make matters worse, I have a D in one of my classes, and the quarter will end before I can change that fact. I hate being in my house now, it's not home and I feel suffocated whenever I'm around people. They frighten me, and I'm always worrying that I'll say or do something wrong to make them hate me. I'm not particularly used to having real friends either, so I tend to push people away whenever they talk to me. Everyone says I'm depressed because I seem so tired and angry, but that's just because I'm not sleeping. I can't sleep; I have to worry about when the next test is coming and how I'm going to keep my grades up. It's torture, and merely existing is completely miserable. I'm also beginning to feel like the most used person alive. I try to be kind, because that's how I was told to act, but people are selfish and only use me for my compassion. They dump their problems on me, and I do my best to solve them. However, when I try to rant myself I'm called self-centered and rude. Even the people who said they'd be there turn around once I can't help them anymore. I've made up my mind, I don't like people. In fact, I've never liked people. I learned the world was cruel too young, and now it's too late for me to possibly see beauty in it. Everything's falling down around me and now the question that keeps ringing in my head is, what's the point anymore?
I know how you feel Katie. I know there seems no end, but as long as you try your best that's all that really matters, and have fun with it too! Just learn the required materials, and i'm sure you will succeed. Your smart, and I know because you went to summer camp with me. A B is not the end of the world. In fact, the average grade for our grade is a C. Just relax, learn to be chill. This will help a lot with stress. Maybe if you can tell your parents your trying your hardest! <3
Don't listen to all those stupid people who are pressuring you. You're trying your best, you're overworking yourself and they're still not happy. Obviously you can do so much better then they can, so why care about what they say? You are an amazing person, no one should criticize you. Stress leads no where, and I bet you're really smart. Just start doing what you would usually do and ignore all the haters or people who are pressuring you. They have no reason to bully you (yes, even if they're your parents) into getting good grades. Who cares? C is the average for most kids, and as you get into higher grades, everything becomes harder. If I was your parents, I would be happy with a report card of C's! It doesn't matter if it's a D! I know you're smart, but all the pressure is making it harder. I think your anxiety disorder is due to all the sleepless nights and the pressure on you. Just try your best and ignore people who pressure you. They have absolutely no right to step all over you. Sit down with your parents and tell them that you're trying your best, but the pressure that they are putting on you is making it harder and harder to get good grades. If they don't listen, just ignore.
Remember that I'm always up for a chat!
~scree53