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[Coopers Cave]

My friend is thinking about killing herself. I dont want to lose her.

[- ; bonk!]

My friend is thinking about killing herself. I dont want to lose her.

*Godzilla hug*

[Azuri]

My friend is thinking about killing herself. I dont want to lose her.

*Godzilla hug*

*group hug*

[Coopers Cave]

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I would really appreciate it if you would read the last few pages of this role play and help us talk her out of it. My tears are overflowing for her.

[Tanetane]

My rant thing is this...
Let's say there is a pool. The pool is full of icy, freezing cold water. And I hate the cold. But outside the pool, there's always warmth and sunshine. I gravitate towards warmth. Now there is a ring of emotions dipping out of the pool and into it, the negative ones emerged in the water and the happy ones basking in the warmth. Guess which one of those emotions I have access to.
Always, always, always the negative ones if that. Sometimes I just spend a very long time completely emotionless. I don't know what it's really like to be actually happy any more. Sometimes I smile, sometimes I laugh but it's fleeting. I don't eat a lot, because I'm never hungry anymore. Most food doesn't taste good anymore. Most food just makes me sick to eat. I've always been picky on food, but not like this... I think one of the reasons I'm so dull in my emotions is because I'm not eating a lot, but I can't really forced myself to eat a big amount at all. I'm just not able to function correctly, I've never been able to do that. I used to be able to do school, but I just did it mindlessly, while I was super concentrated on it. Can't do that now. Not ever since I just crawled back into my home and said 'Nope.' And it didn't have to do with grade reasons, or things that actually pertains to education. It was those kids. Those people. I couldn't talk to them properly. I couldn't interact, and I was scared to, because they hated me. And look, now I'm stuck here looking at a star field of words all the time. I'm emotionless, have no social graces, can't focus on school anymore, and my diet is slowly slipping over a cliff of starvation. Tell me again, why did the world decide school was a good thing to place in the center of a young child's life?

[Lake Petal]

Everyone keeps telling me my life is perfect. Everyone keeps telling me it will be fine. Everyone keeps saying they would switch their life for mine.
Well everyone is gone, and my life is upside down.
I am so sick of people telling me it will turn out right, that I am wanted. Guess what? IT'S NOT. It never has. No matter what I do I am hated. My sister came back gone today. Guess what she did? Started screaming at me and wipped my already raw and sunburnt shoulder.
My English friend called me today. She's had enough of me. She hates me, she never wants to see me again. Though I am not surprised, I already have scars and bruises from her.
My online friends don't care anymore. I'm someone to winge to, i'msomeone who will not ask for help and who is apparently emotionless. YEA. I know I can't sing. YES, I know my drawing suck and YEA, I know I was an accedent no one likes.
I'm sick of the pain. I am suck of being hated for who I am. But who am I? No one. That is who. I'm not super fit, I'm a nerd everyone hates, I don't dress like a slut, I don't like half the things teens my age do... I can't hear, I am 1/3 blind... Oh and don't even get me started on everything else.
I feel like I am like a bunch of characters from Hetalia. Oh wait. I can't talk about them ever, because apparently they are uncool.
I'm lost, I've lost all track of emotion but pain, I've stopped letting myself show joy, I've just....

I've stopped caring. I let it all bild up.. And now I am at cracking point. I've been this broken before, I still have scars from it. And.... Now I'm going there again. Only last time it was because of a prescription drug that I was given an overdose of. Now it is at my own hands.

Tell me, what is it like to live again? I'm broken, I'm open, and I don't feel right now that I've been Lost again. The problem is, no one cares. No one, not even my aunt or parents. My friends hate me, my online friends would not notice if I disappeared, my parents call me the accedent behind my back,y sister is miss perfect, my aunt likes to attack everything, my grandparents don't like me because I use to act like a stereotypical Australian, or, 'ungentlelady-like', my Australian unkle does not like me because I remind him of my dad and my dad hates me because I act too much like him.. I think. Everyone is ashamed of me.

I've tried to impress you and make you proud- for hecks sake, I've gotten into drama as the lead roll, I got leadership in Kapa Haka, I was in the debate semis, I was in the speech finals for 4 years, I've won various swimming awards- some REAGONAL ones too. I made the netball B team, my grades are straight As.... What more do you want? But yet if my sister does one thing good, you all go out for dinner and leave me at home. My sister got over 200$ for Christmas, and I have barely enough for a buss ticket. You forgot my birthday, you forgot my performances, no wait, you decided to book a ride down south even though I gave you MONTHS of warning. You even forgot I was there for Christmas, only giving me things from santa so my sister believes and a book that you bought so you could read. You already said I have to work so I could pay off a non-existent debt, and now you tell me I have to pay for college- a whole 2,000$? I CAN'T AFFORD IT. But what do you care? I've had to miss class trips and even CAMP because of you. I guess I will stop buying canteen lunch- even though it is going to YOUR father's cancer fund.

I give up. I think I will quit everything. Maybe I will run away too. Oh wait. You don't care. I've already been nearly killed 6 times, your responce? "Nice to know". Well. Cool. Because this is a final goodbye.

I've had it.

[SeddieDeer]

I just would really like a hug- if any of you have the time.
My mother has a illness called "Paranoia" That isn't the full name but I'll leave it at that. She has been on medication for it my whole life. And she has been absolutely fine since I was six years old when she had to go into hospital for a while.
I feel like what has happend is partly my fault-
I begged her to come to my "christmas" Concert at school- I wanted her too see me play my violin and be proud of me. She of course said she would come- she even got one of the front seats.
But you see, that night it was too late to take her medication so she skipped it.
And then she skipped another one...
And now she isn't taking her medication properly. She isn't well- she can't see that she needs the medication.
She hasn't been this bad since I was six years old- This person doesn't feel like my mother- she is so different. But I know she's in there... She will have to be taken in hospital soon to make her better. I know this is for her own good though and when she comes out I will have my mother once again.
I just want to speak to my mother about some-things.
Like life and boys- but why she is like this you can't have a normal conversation with her.
I hope I get my mum back soon.
I really miss her.
I just feel so alone right now.

[Mario]

Everyone keeps telling me my life is perfect. Everyone keeps telling me it will be fine. Everyone keeps saying they would switch their life for mine.
Well everyone is gone, and my life is upside down.
I am so sick of people telling me it will turn out right, that I am wanted. Guess what? IT'S NOT. It never has. No matter what I do I am hated. My sister came back gone today. Guess what she did? Started screaming at me and wipped my already raw and sunburnt shoulder.
My English friend called me today. She's had enough of me. She hates me, she never wants to see me again. Though I am not surprised, I already have scars and bruises from her.
My online friends don't care anymore. I'm someone to winge to, i'msomeone who will not ask for help and who is apparently emotionless. YEA. I know I can't sing. YES, I know my drawing suck and YEA, I know I was an accedent no one likes.
I'm sick of the pain. I am suck of being hated for who I am. But who am I? No one. That is who. I'm not super fit, I'm a nerd everyone hates, I don't dress like a slut, I don't like half the things teens my age do... I can't hear, I am 1/3 blind... Oh and don't even get me started on everything else.
I feel like I am like a bunch of characters from Hetalia. Oh wait. I can't talk about them ever, because apparently they are uncool.
I'm lost, I've lost all track of emotion but pain, I've stopped letting myself show joy, I've just....

I've stopped caring. I let it all bild up.. And now I am at cracking point. I've been this broken before, I still have scars from it. And.... Now I'm going there again. Only last time it was because of a prescription drug that I was given an overdose of. Now it is at my own hands.

Tell me, what is it like to live again? I'm broken, I'm open, and I don't feel right now that I've been Lost again. The problem is, no one cares. No one, not even my aunt or parents. My friends hate me, my online friends would not notice if I disappeared, my parents call me the accedent behind my back,y sister is miss perfect, my aunt likes to attack everything, my grandparents don't like me because I use to act like a stereotypical Australian, or, 'ungentlelady-like', my Australian unkle does not like me because I remind him of my dad and my dad hates me because I act too much like him.. I think. Everyone is ashamed of me.

I've tried to impress you and make you proud- for hecks sake, I've gotten into drama as the lead roll, I got leadership in Kapa Haka, I was in the debate semis, I was in the speech finals for 4 years, I've won various swimming awards- some REAGONAL ones too. I made the netball B team, my grades are straight As.... What more do you want? But yet if my sister does one thing good, you all go out for dinner and leave me at home. My sister got over 200$ for Christmas, and I have barely enough for a buss ticket. You forgot my birthday, you forgot my performances, no wait, you decided to book a ride down south even though I gave you MONTHS of warning. You even forgot I was there for Christmas, only giving me things from santa so my sister believes and a book that you bought so you could read. You already said I have to work so I could pay off a non-existent debt, and now you tell me I have to pay for college- a whole 2,000$? I CAN'T AFFORD IT. But what do you care? I've had to miss class trips and even CAMP because of you. I guess I will stop buying canteen lunch- even though it is going to YOUR father's cancer fund.

I give up. I think I will quit everything. Maybe I will run away too. Oh wait. You don't care. I've already been nearly killed 6 times, your responce? "Nice to know". Well. Cool. Because this is a final goodbye.

I've had it.

*hugs* Girl, you are beautiful. You are loved. I'm sorry if you don't believe in God, but... He loves you. Even if no one else on this entire planet loved you, God does. He made you, and he has a purpose for you. Don't give up. Don't quit. And I've seen PLENTY of people on CS who like Hetalia. You just have to find some good friends. :3

[mandalorian]

Life for me sucks. I have no friends. My sister hates me,my best friend hates me,she wants me to go be best-friends with someone who i fight with alot..I'm bullied. Not just in real life but on websites too. I'm called ugly,stupid,noobie, its just..so depressing..i've told so many people about this..even my best friend didn't do anything. She just says "Oh." and shruggs. Only one person gave me advise..E..I'm so done with life.

[SabrinaB]

Life for me sucks. I have no friends. My sister hates me,my best friend hates me,she wants me to go be best-friends with someone who i fight with alot..I'm bullied. Not just in real life but on websites too. I'm called ugly,stupid,noobie, its just..so depressing..i've told so many people about this..even my best friend didn't do anything. She just says "Oh." and shruggs. Only one person gave me advise..E..I'm so done with life.

I'm so sorry to hear this... I understand your feelings, but I'm sure there are people who love you. Maybe most are virtual, but they are real people too, just on a big distance.
Don't give up.
*big hug*