|TheComfortCorner|

[CloudZero©]

I would like to thank this thread and all the helpers before my comfort is asked c:
Anyway. I feel like writing here might help clear my head, or convince myself things are going to be okay. Maybe they will.

Nobody understands me. Really.. I try to explain all the little things in my head, but almost I can't even do that. I tell my friends and the best they can spit up is.. "Yeah, haha.. I guess I get what you are saying." It's not enough. I need to expand on why I think of the things I think, I need someone that does the same things I do. It's not that I want you guys to understand what I come up with in my head- But just.. Comfort me on the fact none of my buddies take the time or effort to even TRY to do so. It's just.. Frustrating.
Rant over.

[supernovacity]

Alright mom. I get it.
'Stop whining.'
NO!
I'm not whining!
Perhaps you'd like me to lean over your shoulder and yell at you?!?!
NO!
I'm not academic!
NO!
I don't excell!
Will you just listen?
I get made fun of for having an opinion!
I get made fun of for my weight.
I don't want to go to public school.
Nor private school.
I want to be homeschooled,where no classmate can hurt me!
I get kicked in the chins,and this prick(The same one who kicks my chins.) steals my things!

MOM
CAN YOU JUST LISTEN.

I feel so unwanted.
So hated.
So.....full of hatred.
I can't do it anymore!
I give up loving and tolerating!
I'M FULL OF HATRED.
MY HEART IS GONE.
IT WAS NEVER THERE.
I can't grow to love anything anymore.
I won't love anything but music which fills what used to be my heart!
People put cracks in it.
Then my 'friends' betrayed me
It shattered.
Do you have to deepen the holllow?
Do you have to make me feel so...unwanted?
Can you apprecate music?
Not academics?
We survived on music.
It let our souls flow free.
Yours is chained.
YOU'LL NEVER GET IT.
My talent.
You hate it don't you?
You want some other talent?
Well hell. Guess i'll leave then.


I want to ball up and cry.
You just make it so hard to be happy.
Even when i want to be.

[tbow.]

No one really understands me, and I suppose I really don't give them a chance to. Honestly I only just really realised just how unconnected I am with my group of friends. Of course we're just eating in the cafeteria as usual and I'm sitting quietly on the end as usual. When my friend across from me simply asks how my day's been so far. I looked up and found it actually quite surprising, I was waiting for someone to answer and when I asked if she asked me she said "yeah your here too right?". I dunno, I've just been numb recently. I guess that came as a shock since I'm not used to anyone taking an interest or caring. I shut myself off and don't exactly leap into conversations. I either don't get or am uninterested in what they're talking about most of the time. But still, I know it's my own fault but I wish I could just talk to someone about everything and not have to worry about them hating me for being selfish or what I talk about or what kind of twisted human I am.
I wish I could just talk to someone, but a hug for now is good too.

[another eternity]

Ugh. This is going to sound really stupid and childish, but I don't really care. I never get to be with my friends. So what if the Anime and Manga thing is 2 hours long? The people begged the host to make it longer. So what if it's like 40 minutes away? I'm anti-social enough as it is! I need to meet more people who DON'T make fun of me for what I like and who I am. What I don't need is to be surrounded by a bunch of idiots that think they're better than everyone. ;-; Hold me please. /shot

[Dymestl]

No one really understands me, and I suppose I really don't give them a chance to. Honestly I only just really realised just how unconnected I am with my group of friends. Of course we're just eating in the cafeteria as usual and I'm sitting quietly on the end as usual. When my friend across from me simply asks how my day's been so far. I looked up and found it actually quite surprising, I was waiting for someone to answer and when I asked if she asked me she said "yeah your here too right?". I dunno, I've just been numb recently. I guess that came as a shock since I'm not used to anyone taking an interest or caring. I shut myself off and don't exactly leap into conversations. I either don't get or am uninterested in what they're talking about most of the time. But still, I know it's my own fault but I wish I could just talk to someone about everything and not have to worry about them hating me for being selfish or what I talk about or what kind of twisted human I am.
I wish I could just talk to someone, but a hug for now is good too.

You can PM me if you'd like. <3

__________-


Can I please have a hug?

[oikawa]

Alright mom. I get it.
'Stop whining.'
NO!
I'm not whining!
Perhaps you'd like me to lean over your shoulder and yell at you?!?!
NO!
I'm not academic!
NO!
I don't excell!
Will you just listen?
I get made fun of for having an opinion!
I get made fun of for my weight.
I don't want to go to public school.
Nor private school.
I want to be homeschooled,where no classmate can hurt me!
I get kicked in the chins,and this prick(The same one who kicks my chins.) steals my things!

MOM
CAN YOU JUST LISTEN.

I feel so unwanted.
So hated.
So.....full of hatred.
I can't do it anymore!
I give up loving and tolerating!
I'M FULL OF HATRED.
MY HEART IS GONE.
IT WAS NEVER THERE.
I can't grow to love anything anymore.
I won't love anything but music which fills what used to be my heart!
People put cracks in it.
Then my 'friends' betrayed me
It shattered.
Do you have to deepen the holllow?
Do you have to make me feel so...unwanted?
Can you apprecate music?
Not academics?
We survived on music.
It let our souls flow free.
Yours is chained.
YOU'LL NEVER GET IT.
My talent.
You hate it don't you?
You want some other talent?
Well hell. Guess i'll leave then.


I want to ball up and cry.
You just make it so hard to be happy.
Even when i want to be.

I'm so so so sorry that you have to go through that, love.
Never forget that you are beautiful, you mean something, you are an amazing human being.
I hope you can stay strong, dear.
If you need to cry, just let it all out.
-hugs-
I just really hope your mom and everyone realizes how wonderful you are.
Because you are.
Never forget it.
You are just so amazing, but it's hard to realize it.
Pm me if you need to, okay?
okay. <3

No one really understands me, and I suppose I really don't give them a chance to. Honestly I only just really realised just how unconnected I am with my group of friends. Of course we're just eating in the cafeteria as usual and I'm sitting quietly on the end as usual. When my friend across from me simply asks how my day's been so far. I looked up and found it actually quite surprising, I was waiting for someone to answer and when I asked if she asked me she said "yeah your here too right?". I dunno, I've just been numb recently. I guess that came as a shock since I'm not used to anyone taking an interest or caring. I shut myself off and don't exactly leap into conversations. I either don't get or am uninterested in what they're talking about most of the time. But still, I know it's my own fault but I wish I could just talk to someone about everything and not have to worry about them hating me for being selfish or what I talk about or what kind of twisted human I am.
I wish I could just talk to someone, but a hug for now is good too.

-hugs-
I really hope you feel better, dear.
You're beautiful, and those people can't realize that.
I know how it feels to be ignored.
You can PM me if you want.
You can tell me anything, love. <3
Just so many hugs for you. You deserve all the hugs in the world.

Ugh. This is going to sound really stupid and childish, but I don't really care. I never get to be with my friends. So what if the Anime and Manga thing is 2 hours long? The people begged the host to make it longer. So what if it's like 40 minutes away? I'm anti-social enough as it is! I need to meet more people who DON'T make fun of me for what I like and who I am. What I don't need is to be surrounded by a bunch of idiots that think they're better than everyone. ;-; Hold me please. /shot

-huggles-
Aw, I'm so sorry love. ;n;
It hurts to know thay don't like the same things as you and they look down on you for that.
But they are not superior in any way.
In fact, they are twisted and lesser than you for that.
You are unique and you are marvelous.
Simply marvelous.
Pm me if you need to talk. <3

Can I please have a hug?

-hugs-
You can Pm me if you need to, love.
I'd be happy to help.

[BlingBling]

Alright, so... Over the past few months my family has payed for a new house with a paddock and this year's tuition to an expensive prep school. Well guess what happens only few weeks later? My dad just lost his job and the old house hasn't sold... So we're running low on money and I'm just plain freaked out. I probably won't be able to come back to this school next year since I'm not sure if we can pay, and I actually love this school more than any I'd been to and actually felt comfertable and happy for once. I just need asomeone to tell me everything will end up okay, I'm all stressed out and can't even see my dad to tell him how much I love and miss him because I'm about 4 states away from home.

[team free kick sass]

Alright, so... Over the past few months my family has payed for a new house with a paddock and this year's tuition to an expensive prep school. Well guess what happens only few weeks later? My dad just lost his job and the old house hasn't sold... So we're running low on money and I'm just plain freaked out. I probably won't be able to come back to this school next year since I'm not sure if we can pay, and I actually love this school more than any I'd been to and actually felt comfertable and happy for once. I just need asomeone to tell me everything will end up okay, I'm all stressed out and can't even see my dad to tell him how much I love and miss him because I'm about 4 states away from home.

Hun, you've just gotta trust that everything is going to be alright <3
-huggles-
Know that everyone around you, friends and family, is going to help you get through this.
PM me if you'd like. c:

[team free kick sass]

Can I please have a hug?[/center]

-hug-
PM me if you'd like.
I'm always open c:

[Erythro]

Everyone has breakdowns every now and again right? Well, I have two a year, beginning of school and end of school. Well, school started three weeks ago and I'm three days into my current breakdown. I'm assuming I can make it until Wednesday before it happens, hopefully. I am really emotional right now and I don't know why. I never know why. I have wild mood swings between gloomy and anxious and just plain depressed. I do wish I could get out of this state of mind but I can't until I break down. It's just plain sickening and it makes me more sad because I know how it ends. :<