DawnFire~SilentOne wrote:My mom is/ was being so mean to me on my birthday. It's a long story, but I told my 21 year old brother, Chris (he always understands) about it when I was close to tears but he hugged me and said stuff... I don't remember but it made me feel better. I felt so guilty because my mom wouldn't stop making me feel like all these problems were my fault, and that accidents I made were not accidents. He explained to me that my mom likes to over-react and blame everything on other people (pff I know that) butr also said not to worry about it because it wasn't a big deal like she was making it. I felt so guilty about everything, like I ruined my own birthday and everything... I don't feel that way anymore, but my mom just gets worse and worse. :*C
I'm so depressed now, but my counselor can't tell. On cs, I don't even run anything anymore. I don't name or organize my pets, I don't run my current auctions, or bid on my dreamies. Heck, I don't have dreamies anymore. And in life, I used to love the outdoors. It was my paradise. Now, I can't bear to go outside. I stay inside watching tv, zoning out, staring out the window, reading, writing, doing nothing. I don't care about anything anymore. I no longer have interests. I'm a lost person.
I don't want to sound rude, but sitting around only pondering things, not wanting to do things, just staying a lost person, will only make your problem worse. I learned that the hard way, and now I pay the price. You shouldn't feel guilty for anything, you didn't do anything. Your mother is definately the issue, she shouldn't act that way to you, especially on your birthday! It is a special day for everyone, and since everyone matters, everyone should have a good birthday, not good for some and bad for others. You included. So you should do something about the problem. I always had the idea that, if you really care about someone, you wouldn't lie or fake to them. If something is wrong, tell them, and if they really cared about you back, they wouldn't get mad at you! I am not saying to march up to your mother right now and say, "You're being mean to me! Stop being a jerk!" or anything blunt like that, but just try to get the hint across to your mom that you are not happy by being treated as if everything is your fault. And you should tell this issue to your counselor, ask them to help, that is what they are for. They are there to help you, like those of us on here.
Also, try not to let your mother rule your life, if you don't want to be sad, then don't be. Don't focus your attention on her. You won't be able to impress everyone, my sister is like that. Take advantages of the joy in life, and have your trusted ones help you with the problems. We're all on this world together, so we'd best make the most of it.
I am sorry if I don't help you, but this is about the most I can do. I will keep you in my prayers ^^.
There'll never be another like him, and no matter how I try to find the right guy again, I feel like I am betraying him.....
