|TheComfortCorner|

[rheia]

My world is in bits and has been for years now and thats where the self-harming entered my life. I think it was already there within me and just waiting for a reason to come out. I have had people say to me after seeing the scars on my arms it must be some attention thing, but I am alone when I do it and then i don't go shouting from the rooftops about it. I have noticed that people treat me different after seeing the scars. I dont judge them, so why judge me?

I just don't get why everyone's hating me all of a sudden.

[Amaretto]

My parents, ugh -.- they took the door off my room because I said I might have the iPod in my room 'cause I'm the only one that likes using it and they couldn't find it and they wanted to sell it. But I couldn't find it, so my dad yelled at me for losing it and they took the door off my room. Overreact much? And whenever I play any of my instruments, my dad comments something like "I've never heard *insert a song name that is completely opposite of whatever I'm playing* played like that before" or he'll sing along in a way that makes fun of the way I play, like adding extra notes that shouldn't belong and singing in a mocking voice. I've asked him to stop but he never ever ever ever does, he apologizes and says he'll stop but he hasn't so I've stopped believing any of his apologies and he gets mad at me 'cause sometimes he asks me if I want to go run some errands or go out for to eat with him and then I usually ask where he's going or where we'd eat and it's always either going to the hardware store or going to eat pho. And I don't like going to the hardware store and I'd rather stay home and make something than go to pho, I'm not really a fan of it, so I usually say no. And he complains that I never want to do stuff with him and that he always offers to take me to different nice restaurants and to go to stuff with him but he never does. So he's been mad at me for never wanting to do stuff with him and I've told him I would do stuff with him if it wasn't just pho or the hardware store and he says he offers me to go many different places all the time, but he thinks I just don't like spending time with him. And my mom won't get me piano lessons 'cause they're too expensive and I'd ask my friend, which my mom suggested 'cause he's a piano god, but I like (have a crush on) him and whenever I want to ask him I suddenly can't speak anymore, y'know? Just too nervous. You'd think, us being friends, I shouldn't get so nervous just asking him for piano lessons but I do and I don't know why... and I think I need glasses 'cause things farther away that I've always been able to read or see have been a little harder to lately.

[teleport]

i've never felt more worthless in my life than i do now.
failing everything, late to all my classes, not religious enough for my father, smart enough for my mother, pretty enough for the world, kind enough for my friends, or nonexistant enough for my brother.
the one person who said he'd love me couldn't even stand me in the end and hates me now.
i try so so hard, but it's never good enough.
i'm never good enough.

*Hugs* You're good enough for us, and everyone else on Chicken Smoothie. One day you WILL find someone who likes you the way you are. You have a purpose. You're an amazing person, even if you don't feel like it right now.

[Sanity]

I get really upset when I'm not around friends on a school day,
my mom passed away in Sept. and my dad has been dead since 2007,
my brother.. my only living blood relative.. he's sick, really sick. I don't want to loose him.
so I'm upset with all of this.. but now, the company that "owns" me wants to get me adopted out.
I don't know what's happening.. or what to do. I'm a complete and utter mess this morning.

did I mention? I don't want Christmas to come..
because it'll bring back all the memories of my family, and I don't think I can handle that.
I could really use a hug right now. -.-

[Not Pigeons]

I get really upset when I'm not around friends on a school day,
my mom passed away in Sept. and my dad has been dead since 2007,
my brother.. my only living blood relative.. he's sick, really sick. I don't want to loose him.
so I'm upset with all of this.. but now, the company that "owns" me wants to get me adopted out.
I don't know what's happening.. or what to do. I'm a complete and utter mess this morning.

did I mention? I don't want Christmas to come..
because it'll bring back all the memories of my family, and I don't think I can handle that.
I could really use a hug right now. -.-

/hugs/

I sorry to hear that, if you ever wanna talk you can drop me a PM... :3

[starstream<=]

i've never felt more worthless in my life than i do now.
failing everything, late to all my classes, not religious enough for my father, smart enough for my mother, pretty enough for the world, kind enough for my friends, or nonexistant enough for my brother.
the one person who said he'd love me couldn't even stand me in the end and hates me now.
i try so so hard, but it's never good enough.
i'm never good enough.

*Hugs* You're good enough for us, and everyone else on Chicken Smoothie. One day you WILL find someone who likes you the way you are. You have a purpose. You're an amazing person, even if you don't feel like it right now.

thank you <3

[strawberry fields]

I don't understand why..But...I have a friend called Luke, and I always feel sad if I'm not with him.
I'm pretty sure I don't have a crush on him, as I don't get that weird feeling I do when I see my actual crush...
He manages to make me laugh every minute without fail when I'm sat near him.
He is in a pantomime, and our year group got to see some of it today, and he was singing. I was laughing at him, and it
really made him angry. When they had done preforming, he wouldn't speak to me..or even look at me. I shut down
for the rest of the day. Until last minute before the bell, he told me he I was forgiven and just walked out. I never felt so hurt.
And now none of my 'internet' friends are online. Lou, my luffy, I don't see often. I don't even know if I'm bothered by her
trying to praise me or compliment me anymore. All my friends have just become pretty distant. I don't know what to do...I
haven't had a hug off someone for a whole year. ._______. I could just use some comforting right about now, but I don't
know who to turn to.

[twilight sparkle]

i've never felt more worthless in my life than i do now.
failing everything, late to all my classes, not religious enough for my father, smart enough for my mother, pretty enough for the world, kind enough for my friends, or nonexistant enough for my brother.
the one person who said he'd love me couldn't even stand me in the end and hates me now.
i try so so hard, but it's never good enough.
i'm never good enough.

*Hugs* You're good enough for us, and everyone else on Chicken Smoothie. One day you WILL find someone who likes you the way you are. You have a purpose. You're an amazing person, even if you don't feel like it right now.

thank you <3

Life isn't about you trying to find your place, it's about the world trying to find a place for you. You are good. You are amazing. You are smart. You are beautiful. <3 *Hugs*

[Darkest.Nation]

I am 99.99% sure I do not deserve to have a birthday or gifts under the tree this year.

I already run my parents out of money as it is from clothing, food, school, hobbies, and other things. Plus college, cars, possibly a horse, etc., in the future. I think I'm really contributing to their debt (my brother might be, too, but I feel like I'm really the one that's making them spit out their hard-earned cash) and I really don't know what to do; I want them to pay off the mortgage and grocery bills (and I want to help them; they won't be retiring anytime soon at this point), not buy me a fairly-priced gift for Christmas. I want to get a job but I don't think I can due to some personal issues/the economy.

I have failed three classes for the first time and somehow I do many, many things incorrectly. I have a hard time communicating with others and I can never get decent advice, or any advice at all. I have a checklist of things to change about myself (that are realistically fix-able) and only one of these are getting somewhere.

I am always worried about the quality of life I am giving my pets, because I don't cuddle them and give them attention 24/7 and they always seem lonely or something, and I am the one that brought them into my home.

Hopefully I can burn my wishes on the new moon and perhaps be granted a wish. I've never had a boyfriend, and although my crushes are happy and dating someone else, I am happy for them; but I have never felt this alone for such a long while. I am grateful for everything I have, but I have a hard time expressing it and sometimes it's too much to handle.

Thank you for reading, I just needed to get some things down and clear my head tonight. <3

[WazzinGator]

My problems will never be as big as anyone else's, but I need a hug. I just want out of my depression. That's all I want. I don't care if it's insanity or death, I need to get out of it. Whenever I post about my feelings most people just think I'm looking for attention but I'm not. I'm really not. I don't want to be the center of attention, I just want to get better. ;n;

*giant hug*
I understand. Sometimes I feel like that too, but surely not as bad. I trust you completely that you aren't just looking for attention. That would be idiotic if someone did that. I give you all my hope in felling better. c: Please, please, pleeease try to avoid suicidal thoughts. That would be horrible. I'm sure you're a great person, don't waste yourself.

Ugh. Family issues suck. One wrong, joking sentence leads to seemingly an eternity of my mum being frosty. Listening to Ed Sheeran helps, of course, but I'm so close to tears and it just upsets me. Summer's meant to be a happy time, isn't it?

That's terrible. I'm so sorry. *hug, hug, hug!* Don't get mad at yourself for crying, or feeling like crying. I do that a lot, and it never ends up pretty. You have a really good reason to, so give yourself a break. Best of luck.