Hey there! I'm Neelix. I'm in a hard spot in life, (I'll spare a few of the details for security reasons) and could use some prayer.
Here are a few things I can tell you. I just recently (A few months ago) moved across the country, away from my church, and best friend who went to that church with me, and still really struggle with being lonely.
Life is settling down, and it almost makes it harder. We have found our new church, but it doesn't feel like home... Our old church spoiled us with the best worship team I've ever had in a church. (My dad was on it, so I guess I was a tad bit partial to it. ;D) Our new church just isn't the same... I'm sure a lot of you know what I mean, if you've ever had to move.
I'm a little shy, so I have a hard time meeting people, and am not exactly comfortable in the crazy youth group. O.o I'm sure it'll get better... This last week's sermon was about how relationships often crumble for several reasons. Change, Distance, and I don't remember the last one.. xD It's hard to keep relationships strong when you live 2000 miles away, and are two time zones apart.
I'm terrified that I'll lose my friend. I'm really not one who ever has many friends, and I take friendship more seriously than most people do... She actually told me not to forget her, but It's really more likely for her to forget about me in her life that I never could be very much apart of anyways. (We only saw each other every other week, and I was/am homeschooled, she public schooled, and I lived on the other side of a mountain range. )
I miss everyone so much, and sometimes it feels as if they have all forgotten about me, when in all reality, they just haven't had time to send me an email or facebook message. So yeah... Hard times. Plus there's more, but I am disinclined to disclose that information.
I have a really hard time just relying on Jesus to be my comforter and friend. I too often seek for things and people I can see and hear, and are more tangible then God often is. I want him to be so tangible... Trust me, there were times in my old church where the Holy Spirit was just there. Everyone was on their knees crying there eyes out, and you could feel his presence like he was a human being. I want to feel that again. For his presence to be so real, so tangible. I just want to be near again.
(And now it looks all cheesy, but whatever... See how vain and prideful I am? =\)
-Neelix
... hey I'm Neel! I'm a preschool teacher by day
... with a background in illustration and graphic design.
... I drop by CS from time to time to doodle, so feel free to
... send me a PM and I'll get back to you when I can!
Neel - they/she - cAAAAAAATS