I don't think I've been on here since the list has been remade (and I do not have the time to look through the whole thing, I'm sorry), so you can add me to it! I really should visit this thread more.
I went to a Valentine's Day coffeehouse out on by one of the local youth groups tonight. It wasn't technically a religious event, it was a fundraiser for the youth group's trip to Youth Conference this May. (I have no idea why my group from school hasn't started fundraising for this yet, if we were, no one told me). But really, anything put on by a Christian group will have a religious aspect to it. There was a bunch of worship music, and some Bible readings. It was really good, there were a bunch of people I knew, and my friend Josh even performed (he's incredibly talented musically, he's got a great singing voice, but he seems to get really nervous in front of large crowds. Sometimes he's perfectly okay, and every so often, like tonight, the nerves just really go). And it somehow just was a really good night for me, despite the fact I was there with a few of my friends who aren't so religious, and the fact that my social anxiety got really bad the moment we stepped through the doors. I know I should never feel the need to have an anxiety attack in a religious gathering, but for some reason, things like this seem to be the worst. It's the reason I've never been able to join this youth group, even though it's probably the best choice of youth groups. This isn't my home congregation, and I felt out of place, even though I knew practically everyone there. But I managed to finally tell someone (that someone being my three friends) about my social anxiety, and they helped me through it, and, after a while, we started mingling and things were not bad. But the real religious moment came when Josh started singing. He sang Alive Again, one of my favourite songs of all time. Everyone on the couch we were sitting on mostly stopped talking to listen to him, and I was sitting on the floor in front (I later found out I was sitting in someone's drink), and I started singing along quietly, and it was a beautiful moment, even though Josh and I haven't been on good terms with each other recently. Then the last performers (right after Josh) was the local youth worship band, and they sang Mighty to Save, and that was when I had my total moment, just sitting on the floor, full-out worshipping. I feel like this was an important night tonight, I got closer to God again and learned some things about my anxiety issues, as well as opening up a lot.












