i just had my last performance today, a sunday matinee. about to cry because i don't know when / if i'll see my castmates again. i'm also gonna miss the play in general. running to get where i need to be around the building holding a shield in one hand and a sword tucked into a belt, my bloody tunic, smearing blood in my hair. i'll miss lady macbeth's clumsiness, and how more than once lila [the actor] knocked over something porcelain and it shattered. i'm going to miss being dead and being carried off by prince malcolm and king duncan [gage and bragg], i'm going to miss chatting with macduff [luke] and his sweetness and how he was the first high school boy to make attempts to talk to me. i'll miss the little fights people sometimes got into. i'll miss everyone. god i feel like i just lost a whole family. i'm about to cry now ;_;
I hate it when people don't understand how little things can make and brake my day .-. *sigh* Yes the fact that Ashley Purdy is in Tattoo Magazine made my whole day all right? And yes the fact that I most likely won't be able to meet Davey Suicide even though I have enough for VIP passes to his show probably broke my whole month. Please people, just understand how much little things like this (the VIP passes things not so little in my opinion but most people seem to think it is) can effect my whole mood.
gah, this summer. I thought my boyfriend & I would be able to hang out more often now that we don't have school, but I was wrong. If anything, we talk & hang out less & it makes me sad. plus one of my closest friends now thinks that she's so cool & great because her house is the house people come to for parties because her parents couldn't care less. they don't even know her name & couldn't care less about if she's even at the party, they just go because they know the address & don't have to worry about getting caught. she's so arrogant & annoying now. if it weren't for me, these parties would've never started happening because no one knew her.