by ghftz. » Sat Jun 15, 2013 6:18 pm
Tonight. Frigging hell I feel horrid.
I ended up getting stuck on a single sentence in my writing and rammed right back into this horrible writer's block again. I haven't gotten to write anything beyond forum complaints for weeks now so this kind of pisses me off.
I haven't heard from my friends much lately, if at all in some cases, and the only one of which who doesn't continuously unintentionally stress me out is on some sort of vacation right now and not saying much on Skype, and is too lazy to remake his CS account Dx
And I figured, hey I'm not feeling too swell so I'm gonna try and improve on my drawing and see if it distracts my rediculous paranoia! Eheh, no, now apparently my brain wants to pick at me for re-trying something I asked for help on. Oh hey I still haven't responded to anyone that said anything about it yet? Aren't I just a wonderful person.
I feel like I'm going to get bashed.
A lot.
And in horribly condescending, accusative ways.
I shouldn't have bothered to ask for help. Asking for anything draws more attention than just failing quietly and dealing with the flaws. And now I feel like I have to say something to these people it attracted and I just
I don't want to right now I feel like a skankpile
But they'll probably think it incredibly rude if I just don't say anything
but then I can't say anything without sounding either rude or cocky anyway
I just can't win can I?
I really ought to just go to bed and maybe tomorrow this emotional skankstorm will have gone away but I'm horribly hyped up on caffeine and I just
I'm going to melt.