|TheComfortCorner| v.2

[ghostley.]

♔

i'm crying again
why can't anyone just love me for me
instead of pointing out all my flaws?
now i have to sit here in darkness
because that's probably the only thing
that appreciates by presence

[nyah,]

♔

i'm crying again
why can't anyone just love me for me
instead of pointing out all my flaws?
now i have to sit here in darkness
because that's probably the only thing
that appreciates by presence

aw, sweetheart
we all love you, i love you c:
they're just jealous of you, and i mean it
they wish they were as beautiful and as unique as you
don't let the bullies bring you down
because we all believe that you are perfect.

[ghostley.]

♔

it feels like my heart has been ripped out
i want to die
my mom hates me because i'm stupid
my classmates all of a sudden turned on me &&
harass me for no reason
here on cs people just look at me as dirt
i'm extremely stressed because of about a thousand
personal issues
my head is now in excruciating pain from tears
crying is going to be my death
why don't i just lock myself if in bathroom?
nobody will notice i'm gone
nobody will even care
this mental pain is indescribable
tears and salt are now dripping down my face
continuous lies are told to me:
"oh i love you! i'd care if you died or moved!
i won't judge you for you!
you can
trust
me."
i......i.......
have no purpose
my only friend right now is god:
even my dog will avoid me
what did i do?
why am i the massive disappointment in everyone's life?
why can't i just be told for once that someone loves me? &&
it not be sympathetic lies?
why can't i have friends and family who love me
just like everyone else does
i wish i were dead right now
because then
nobody will care
yes, nobody
not even me
because i won't have to deal with anyone
ever again

[Cosmi]

I hope my friend didn't stand me up.
She was suppose to call a long time ago.
I was just... looking forward to this so much.

[Banette~]

First of all, whenever I work really hard on my form for a give-away, something always goes wrong with the pet I'm entering for. I enter for a prized dream pet- they end without a winner. I enter another give-away- don't realize that I have to send a freakin' trade, and when I go to do that, they've already traded it off to someone else. And that person didn't even enter the give-away. Plus, it's in their trade group. I mean, can't I enter a give-away for once, work hard on my form, and actually get judged on it? Without them trading the pet away, or closing it? I know, it's their pet, their decision, but still.... I have the worst luck.

More good news; my anorexia is getting worse. Just when I thought I had it under control, I have to go bonkers again. Now, I can't even make myself eat the banana that I used to eat in my lunch, or a small bag of 94% reduced fat microwaveable popcorn. Not even a glass of milk. No, I can't even do that. A few weeks ago, I was losing a pound a week; somehow, last weekend, the scale said I had gained a pound. Truth is, that scale isn't always that reliable, but seeing that broke my resistance. Now it's back to being hungry for nearly two hours before supper, and going to bed with an empty, growling, aching stomach. Now, when I get hungry she just wants to nap, I'm going to get angry again, and on the verge of tears. Why? I don't know. It consumes me. And I wonder if I've lost that one pound I supposedly gained.... probably. Probably lost more. I was doing so good, not losing as much.... now I'm probably going to end up with a dietician. They'll probably lecture me on how I'm not eating nearly enough... and they will make me gain weight again. As if my self esteem wasn't low enough already. Wow, I think I may be finally losing it. How sane was I before, I have no clue. But now... there's junk food everywhere, desserts everywhere. Watching her eat all that horrible, heavenly tasting junk... that will be the death of me. If I get even one bite of something bad like candy or dessert, I won't be able to stop. Hilarious, how I used to eat so much dessert and junk food, and now just the sight of it makes me curl up into a defense-less ball... nobody understands. Even after telling her, she still thinks I can just stop thinking about it. That I can just stop, and go back to normal. That I could eat a cupcake without feeling a tremendous sense of guilt, without making myself go hungry to make up for the extra calories I consumed. That I could go to a party without any anxiety, without having to lie about my stomach hurting, or how I had a big lunch and am full when I'm really not. Nobody understands. Funny, how I managed to ruin my own life in such a short amount of time... if anybody has advice, I would appreciate it. Preferably from someone who has gone through this, or can at least try to understand, and not think I'm insane. Thanks.

[My Immortal]

Pm me...

[Legato]

I hope my friend didn't stand me up.
She was suppose to call a long time ago.
I was just... looking forward to this so much.

I've noticed that sometimes friends don't mean to do that to someone. People forget about certain things if they get sidetracked, so don't go too hard on yourself for this. <3 If your friend was meant to take you somewhere, something urgent may have come up. It's happened to me in the past and it's certainly a reason for why she might not have called.

First of all, whenever I work really hard on my form for a give-away, something always goes wrong with the pet I'm entering for. I enter for a prized dream pet- they end without a winner. I enter another give-away- don't realize that I have to send a freakin' trade, and when I go to do that, they've already traded it off to someone else. And that person didn't even enter the give-away. Plus, it's in their trade group. I mean, can't I enter a give-away for once, work hard on my form, and actually get judged on it? Without them trading the pet away, or closing it? I know, it's their pet, their decision, but still.... I have the worst luck.

More good news; my anorexia is getting worse. Just when I thought I had it under control, I have to go bonkers again. Now, I can't even make myself eat the banana that I used to eat in my lunch, or a small bag of 94% reduced fat microwaveable popcorn. Not even a glass of milk. No, I can't even do that. A few weeks ago, I was losing a pound a week; somehow, last weekend, the scale said I had gained a pound. Truth is, that scale isn't always that reliable, but seeing that broke my resistance. Now it's back to being hungry for nearly two hours before supper, and going to bed with an empty, growling, aching stomach. Now, when I get hungry she just wants to nap, I'm going to get angry again, and on the verge of tears. Why? I don't know. It consumes me. And I wonder if I've lost that one pound I supposedly gained.... probably. Probably lost more. I was doing so good, not losing as much.... now I'm probably going to end up with a dietician. They'll probably lecture me on how I'm not eating nearly enough... and they will make me gain weight again. As if my self esteem wasn't low enough already. Wow, I think I may be finally losing it. How sane was I before, I have no clue. But now... there's junk food everywhere, desserts everywhere. Watching her eat all that horrible, heavenly tasting junk... that will be the death of me. If I get even one bite of something bad like candy or dessert, I won't be able to stop. Hilarious, how I used to eat so much dessert and junk food, and now just the sight of it makes me curl up into a defense-less ball... nobody understands. Even after telling her, she still thinks I can just stop thinking about it. That I can just stop, and go back to normal. That I could eat a cupcake without feeling a tremendous sense of guilt, without making myself go hungry to make up for the extra calories I consumed. That I could go to a party without any anxiety, without having to lie about my stomach hurting, or how I had a big lunch and am full when I'm really not. Nobody understands. Funny, how I managed to ruin my own life in such a short amount of time... if anybody has advice, I would appreciate it. Preferably from someone who has gone through this, or can at least try to understand, and not think I'm insane. Thanks.

Actually, if someone opens a giveaway they have to give away the pet no matter what. Either that, or they have to offer a pet of equal value. They cannot close a giveaway they have opened like that. If someone has done that, then it's a reportable offense.

I'm sure you'll get what you want out of giveaways eventually. ^^ Everyone does! It just takes time, sometimes longer for you than it might be for someone else. Just hang in there.

As for anorexia, I have not personally gone through it and don't know much about it. However, I can definitely state that I know how your mind works, for mine works in the same way at times. People thinking you can just "snap out of it" is common. I've seen that way too many times, even in my own family. You need help from a doctor with what's ailing you. Getting yourself back up there is a gradual process, and it's very hard to do on your own. Psychological help would benefit you, I promise. I realize that's probably a scary thing to think about, but it's true. This is a serious condition and requires medical attention. If you cannot break away from it yourself, then you need help that will push you towards that. If you want to be healthy after you begin eating again, exercise will do that for you. Not eating won't. I hope I've helped just a little. ;u;

[ghostley.]

♔

depression
woo
i try to escape awkward and gross conversations
but that's exactly what I'm getting here
rather would hang out with some of the seniors
rather than my own class
but i can't
joy

[mandalorian]

My cat still hasnt come back.
Great, now i'm freaking out again.

[honee bee]

I'm done with friends
Now I'm not too sure who is my true friends.
I'm just. >.< Not sure.