by The Great ME! » Mon Apr 22, 2013 11:05 am
I'm getting really sick and tired of being chewed out and belittled for having an anxiety problem that makes it nearly impossible to ever be able to focus on school work
"Oh, that'd just bullcrap, you just never pull out your work and do it!"
And just how the Hell would you know?
Just because you don't SEE me doing it, oh person who stays in the living room all day watching tv or texting people online
When someone tells me the exact answer to an assignment to write down and I don't have enough focus to remember it TWO SECONDS LATER I'm pretty sure it's not just about being "lazy"!
I mean you think I would REALLY pass up having a teacher tell me all the answers to just get it done???
Out of "laziness"?
REALLY??
Maybe instead of chewing my ass you should get YOUR ass on the phone and try calling up that list of councelors the doctor gave you so I won't have this problem anymore
But oh no that'd just be too much to ask that you do that instead of getting on MY case for something I can't help and have been TRYING to fight and TRYING to get you to believe me about for YEARS now
But oh I'm sure that not pushing hard enough to make you actually listen to me is all MY fault too
Just like how EVERYTHING else always is MY fault
Absolutely everything
Yup
Everything's my fault and I'm just a lazy good-for-nothing slouch who makes crap excuses to get out of responsibility, that's it
God I am so sick of this
And you really wonder why I stay in my room instead of spending time with you in the other room
Maybe because every time I DO I get basically chewed out and called a lazy failure?
Thank you just oh so very much for that
You really just make me feel so grateful to have even been born =.= Sorry I just can't be as "AMAZING!" and "PERFECT" as you *sarcasm*
I really just want to curl up and cry right now
I thought it was pretty damn clear how frustrated I've become at not being able to focus on even the simplest assignments, even when I try to force myself to, but HERP-DA-DERP apparently not because apparently I'm just a failure at everything
Year of the RoosterNeat, organized, alert, perfectionist, scientific, responsible.
Can be critical, egotistical, rough, opinionated.
When it rains it pours
When the floodgates open
Brace your shores
That pressure don't care when it breaks your doors
Say "it's all you can take"
Better take some more
Cuz I know what it's like to test faith
Had my shoulders pressed with that weight
Stood up strong in spite of that hate
Night gets darkest right before dawn
What don't kill you makes you more strong
And I been waiting for it so long
~”Light That Never Comes”, Linkin Park