J,
Oh man, the show's over!!! It was crazy and- well, having 4 dances you're in and having one onstage that you choreographed, it was a lot. Thank you for being a calming force when I can't calm down backstage, for holding me and reassuring me when I was freaked out. Thank you for what you told me, for calling me beautiful and the statement that you were impressed with my choreography piece meant a lot, and it made me really happy when you called me yours- very blatantly, telling C that "She's mine!", and I am always impressed by you, by watching you do ballroom with another boy dancer (even though I wish I was your partner- you two were fabulous) watching you play music in world music performances and watching you do African, you look like you really feel the music, you don't just hear it, you let it become a part of you, and you were amazing- let alone you're the youngest in the class! You're an amazing bright light, an incredible individual, and you never stop amazing me with who you are and what you can do. Plus I can't get the image out of me mind ( from yesterday at dress rehearsal- and I don't want to get it out of my head ) I was in my tap costume, fishnets and all, and I sat down against the wall across the hall from the door to the stage, in front of a mirror, and I just kept looking up at the mirror, at this image of the two of us sitting together with my head on your shoulder, and I saw how you were looking at me, the kind of look that can't be faked, that the girl hardly ever sees unless she catches him doing it with out him knowing, and that image- that ligament visual sight of seeing us together, I was so happy, I loved how it looked so much!
I told you I love you for the first time today, far earlier than I though I could or would, but I had to, I couldn't go another day with out saying something, but I did, and you seemed so happy! I told you and you looked at me and said how you felt the same way but you couldn't word it quite right (apparently like I did). I am in love with you and everything about you, everything feels right when I'm with you and I never even thought that that was possible for me with a boy. I hate how cliché it sounds, but it is what it is.
I love how you called me out of the girls dressing room by yelling "I need my pretty girlfriend!!!!!"
We both cried more than our fair share tonight, you me and D standing in the hall, crying because D and many other seniors are leaving, and neither of us were dealing with that very well at the time... I'm still not doing well with the concept. After D left and we were two of the only ones left there, we just held on to each other and cried. After we let go and I had to find my family, I cried so much harder. You made it easier for me, because it feels like whenever Im with you, everything is going to be alright. Then I wasn't with you.... and I broke down- hard. I cried most of the way home.
You are so supportive of me, you tell me how beautiful and talented I am, and you believe so much in me, I don't always know what to do with it.... I love you for this, and I can't tell you how right it feels to be around you.
And yes. I know, I owe you a movie :) I'll do my best to get away from my family for a while this weekend!
Thank you for every minute!
With Love, INK.






































