by INK. » Thu May 29, 2014 5:50 pm
J,
The shows are over! You made it and I saw 3/4 of your plays, sorry I didn't see the fourth, I had to see H's yesterday, and I wanted to see AJ's really bad, you understood- you even encouraged me to see AJ's tonight instead, you also told me that your 4th one really wasn't all that good, but I still wish I had seen it, I didn't like Aj's as much as I though I would.... and I honestly didn't like H's much at all.... (sorry H.) You told me it went o.k. but I'm just glad that I got to see three out of the four, and it looks like I got to see the best of yours. Either way, there's nothing I can do now about it. I had forgotten how good of an actor you are, and I don't want to forget that again, you are such a bright incredibly talented individual, and you never cease to amaze me with what you can and will do, you're a great actor, dancer, musician, and you're one of the nicest down to earth people I have ever met, and I'm not kidding. Ask my parents, I told them this over a year ago before I had any romantic interest in you, it's just true- I've always thought this about you for as long as we've gone to school together (we didn't talk much before you started school here- but we met through theatricos.) Not only this but I really love watching you hang out with your friends, you always make me feel welcome around them, and you don't change one bit for me and it's great! I get to see you interact with your guy friends, and you yell and laugh really hard and argue over geeky things and give people other than me a hard time for things they've done or said. It makes me laugh to say this- even think it, but you're the most manly boyfriend I've ever had and I really enjoy it, that you act more like a normal teenage boy than the others, although you're not in the least ordinary, and I laughed at myself today, after school you and K were arguing, even yelling at each other (both smiling and laughing at the same time) and I though to my self- "wow, he's really a guy" with a smile on my face- ***before anyone gets upset with me for this statement, I have no problem with more feminine boys at all, it's just that all my previous boyfriends have been, socially awkward, or socially... odd. This is the first guy I've had who's social and a lot more masculine, and yes, this is something I really like about him- I am allowed this.*** I may not know how to talk to these people very well, but I do like being around them, it's hilarious what you guys talk about, and I loved that you connected to me even while you were with them, I was clearly yours and you made it clear that I was welcome there with you- so I never stood there uncomfortably or felt unwelcome, but I wasn't your center of attention either which is great, I could still sit on my own while you went at it with K and S, yelling and laughing and what not. I laughed so much today, my cheeks hurt and my smile felt almost stuck
You're everything that I've ever wanted in a guy, and I never thought that I'd find someone like you, who at the same times likes me. I'm not saying you're perfect, none of us are, I'm just really happy how everything worked out. It still feels odd having people go out of their way to tell us that we are cute together, because I don't need any conformation this time, we are together, and it feels like everything is how it should be- people freaking out about us- well it's just weird because it also feels like we've been together much much longer and none of us has anything to do with any of them and I think that's how it should be.
INK.
One step at a time.
