by icicle1107 » Mon Mar 31, 2014 5:37 pm
Dear A,
I trust you...but our conversation made me think about my previous relationships. How people change when they want you. I said no twice last yr and both times they respected my wishes and I know if it came down to it you would do the same. You say you don't want to, and even if I did want to (which I don't, I'm not ready for that) you would say no. I'm kinda curious if that would be true but also if we are together a long long time from now, maybe another 6 months or even more, I might want to. It isn't a thing I'm not curious about, I'm just not ready. I wont be for a long time yet. But eventually I will be ready and I don't want it to be a mistake.
What you were talking about tonight...I told you that if this was really going to happen then no regrets. You asked why you would regret it and well... every time we do something like what we were talking about you change afterwards, you seem to question everything about it. You even talked to me, the next day, and asked me if we went to far. You regret things that I don't. And it hurts to know that. I start questioning myself and what I've done and why I don't feel the same you do and why I did it...etc and it isn't good for me. I have enough on my plate already to deal with....so if you are actually going to do what we talked about. Don't regret it. Or keep it to yourself. Please.
~icicle1107
Dear A,
Soon? You have a week. If nothing happens by then, if you haven't talked to me about it, then I have to go.
Sorry love,
~icicle1107