Write a Letter you Cannot Send (Read the Rules!)

[proud.little.wolf]

Dear parents,

No, you are not the judges of what I can handle. I am my own person whose mileage varies from yours; what is disturbing to you is normal to me. I'm old enough now that you don't need to always be in my business about everything. I hope you realize that I'm not the sheltered kid you wanted me to be; nothing good ever comes of being sheltered. If you could honestly stop viewing me as a child, maybe my life would be a little more stress-free.

On another matter, when I try to talk calmly and be reasonable with you, you try and tell me that I'm wrong/being childish. Excuse me? I'm the one trying to have a mature, civilized conversation, and here you are completely ignoring that. You tell me that I need to grow up and learn to be reasonable? Hah, it appears that I'm way ahead of you. Drop your holier-than-thou attitudes and learn to listen to everyone, regardless of age or status. And really, your threats of physical violence are the real childish things here, not me.

-X

[icicle1107]

A,
Txt or call me again tomorrow when you leave for work, please? It made me feel good. Don't ever be afraid of waking me up, especially not to tell me you love me. I could only give short answers because I was half asleep but still it was beautiful.
I know that earlier this week I wasn't doing well and I got mad at something you said and also I felt that you were uncomfortable after the night I called and you listened to me cry for an hr or so before I was okay, but we talked and now it is okay. We are okay.
Last night I told you i couldn't wait forever and I can't. I've waited for you for almost 3 months already and now that i know you love me it's so much harder...when I didn't know I could so easily keep myself away from you, hold back slightly but now things are different, you want time but i am impatient. It's harder to stay away, and i can feel the tension coming off your body when I'm near. You're holding back and I'm holding back so lets just stop okay? I'll give you a little more time but, A, if it isn't going to happen then i need to move on. You need to let me go. I've started gaining back some old tendencies and am a flirt. I like it and i don't want to stop for nothing. I don't think i even will stop completely. Not like i did last time, i was almost too devoted to you. So when you left i couldn't stop that feeling. I don't feel it as much anymore...and i feel so much freer.
IDK what is going to happen but you have to decide soon, or i will be lost
~icicle1107

G,
I feel good, today and yesterday were pretty good! Friday i was so tired but otherwise i was alright....but enough about me. Are you okay? You seemed off on Friday. If you want to talk I'm here love just let me know.
~icicle1107

[ShadowWolf~]

Dear ___,

Look, I don't want you to leave, Okay?
I've spent three, almost four, years waiting. Waiting for you to come back. Waiting for the time where it'd be like we were kids, and I could see you everyday. ..Instead of waiting for holidays and only having you visit for a few days.
It hurt like heck when you first went away for college.
You left me.
By myself.
Alone.
Maybe I wasn't as lonely as I thought I was, but I didn't care about anyone else. They didn't matter. They didn't mean anything compared to you.
While you were away I did things I shouldn't have. I got in trouble most of the time, but I promise I never meant to hurt anyone. I was upset because you left and you weren't around to protect me, or guide me.
The thing I regret the most was lying to you though. I said, and promised, I'd be strong and I knew I lied the second you left.
You know, I'd cry until I was sick if ___ or ___ said that they talked to you, knowing I couldn't because it happen when either of us were away. Even ____ got to speak to you, but not me.
I was the age when I knew I was too old of a boy to cry and fuss over you. Even today, I'm too old to be acting this way. But you know, from back then, I liked to believe that we were the only two guys alive. Because to me, you're all that cared, and you're the only one who I felt would actually do something for me. Especially to see me smile. I know you love my smile, you say so all the time.
But I don't smile much anymore. Mostly because you're never around anymore.
And you know what, if you leave, you'll never see it again. How could I smile after knowing you'd leave again even after you promised you'd come back? What about those promises you made? About living together up in that house in ________ so we could always see each other? I was 9 at that time you promised that. So many years have gone by and I still remember. I know it wasn't even realistic, but just the thought of it...
And You just want to move away to Europe, for that stupid job offer you "apparently" turned down last year. Do you not remember how I felt, how I acted even when you said you were thinking about taking it?
Do you not understand that my life is embedded within you?
Do you not understand that I love you?
I love you way more than I ever should. There is a limit to how much I could love you. A limit that everyone knows they have when it concerns _____ ___ _______. But I don't care. I love you.
I hate that I cannot tell you that though. You'd always think of me differently, and I could never be as close to you as I've gotten all throughout my life. Especially those times when we were kids, and you should know what times I'm talking about.
It's hard enough not being able to tell you, but not being able to tell others is difficult too. If I told anyone else about my feelings for you I know they'd think I was joking, but I'm not.
I'm starting to question if I should tell you. Maybe it'd be enough to make you stay, or just enough to make you want to leave.
I did tell you once, that I loved you, but you took it as just the same thing I say. Hmm. Maybe I've told you a billion times then.
I just don't want you to go.
I can wait for special holidays when you visit, or the summers when your courses end. But if you were to go to Europe.. I'd lose you. You couldn't visit, and I couldn't see you.
I'm sorry I'm being selfish, I know this job means everything to you like you say it does... But I thought I'd mean a little more, even if it's not by much.
Just please don't leave me.
Stay.
So I can be with you.
I love you so much.
And I always have.
So please, for me,
Stay.

×- Dai.

[northern downpour ;;]

Cin,

I felt you shatter tonight. You broke. You were consumed by the pain.
There is nothing you can do.
I tried, so hard, with the help of toxic. We tried to fix you. I can see now that you've taken too much. You've finally broken into so many pieces that I can't fix you.
You feel that you aren't safe anywhere. Maybe you're right.
It seems that even relying on people doesn't help.
...
You're going to leave, aren't you?
...
I won't judge you.
It isn't stupid, Cin.
Look.
I love you.
I'm sorry it had to be this way. I'm sorry you had to shatter.
I'm sorry Santa Fe couldn't save you.
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough to save you. I'm sorry.
I'm so sorry.
I failed you.
Please...
I...
...
Well, dear friend, I'll keep trying.
But you're in too many pieces. You've shattered. Has anyone ever put something that shattered back together?
Has anyone ever taken an eggshell and put it back together after dropping it from several stories up?
It's impossible, so of course no one has.
I'm sorry.
I failed.

~<3

[spencer]

Dear Darling...
I love you. I hope you still love me, I hope it never goes away. Remember that quote you texted me? "If you love two people, choose the second?"
I know you have a boyfriend. I know I shouldn't be jealous when you are with him, I know I should not be jealous when you hug other girls, especially Sophia.
I'm so glad to be your best friend. All I want to say is that I love you. I need you, more than I thought. You said that loving me "might go away". I hope it doesn't. I can't tell you. I'm too scared.
I was the happiest person ever when you told me you wanted to kiss me. I still don't know when I'll be ready. I really want to do that, but I'm just so scared.
Do you really know I mean it when I say "I love you"? Do you think it's just a best-friend-I-love-you? It's not. It's true every single time I tell you. I want to say it everytime you text me. But I'm not sure if it'll annoy you. Please don't reject me if I get clingy or something like that. I don't want to lose you.
I love you.
I need you.

~Your "Sweetheart".

[.the.accident.]

dear self,
why did you buy those easter cakes.
what did you expect would happen?
you'd only eat one?
no.
i know you want more.
you want more food.
MORE.
FOOD.
please do not eat any more easter cakes.
just don't.

-self


dear _____,
how dare you eat two of my easter cakes.
shame on you.
i thought i could trust you.
but you eat every snack food in the house.
"i dont like twinkies", you said.
HOW MANY MORE ARE YOU GOING TO EAT?
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

-your loving sibling

[northern downpour ;;]

Calico,

I CAN'T
I CAN'T DO IT
Come back... Please...

-Cin...

[dovah]

Dear my pet beagle, Bam Bam,

Bam Bam, I really love you, but when you get on my lap when I'm playing Chicken Smoothie, use your nose to knock the duct tape off my desk and start chewing on it, I get annoyed. Right now your on my lap licking yourself innocently. I cannot send you this letter because you don't know how to read. hadfs, That right there is you hitting the keyboard with your paw. Silly.

Love, Your Owner,

Cherry ^^

[panhead]

Dear tomorrow,

GO SMOOTHLY. BE GOOD. DON'T RAIN.

Thanks.



Dear Z.

I don't need to be waken up at ten at night with your stupid texts about just wanted to chat, I want to sleep!

Yup.




Dear S.


You have no idea. Just by sharing your story you've freaked me out. I don't want to judge you. I wore your dress today. It's okay. Just because you did that doesn't give you the right to....
I dunno,
kind of show it off? Make a big deal? OKAY. Maybe it is this huge deal about almost dying and what not, but crying, sobbing, making puns and being all....eek. About it is not working.

I walked one couple steps down your path before, with ... . But....

I don't care. I'm not going to show the bad things about me to the world.


I'll keep wearing your dress,
me.



Dear A,
hai sugar cookie!
-mah!

[northern downpour ;;]

Cin,

It's your fault.
You LOST him.
YOU LOST HIM
IT'S YOUR FAULT!!!!
This is what you wanted, isn't it?!
This is what you wanted.
He's gone now.
He's gone and you can't get him back because you cast him away.
I hope you got what you wanted.
You can die now.

~Toxic's girl