by Wesley » Fri Sep 20, 2013 3:24 pm
Dear _______,
What happened? We were so close for so long, and now I feel like you've suddenly become pretty standoffish. It kind of worries me. Did I do something wrong? Please let me know if I did. I love you, and you mean the world to me. You told me you were going to kiss me, you know. Because you wanted to & because you wanted to see me smile again. What happened to that guy from just last week, the week before? Things are tough right now, I understand. I know that you aren't going to the college of your choice, and your younger brother is causing trouble. I'd be pretty pissed if I had to leave the university to go pick up my brother who had gotten kicked out of school too. The kid's seven for goodness sake. But I don't think you really should be treating me like an afterthought right now. Your signals and your messages have become less flirty and more... Negative. Instead of making me feel beautiful and independent, you make me feel immature and lonely. You're the pnly person I have to cling to. I tell you absolutely everything. So when you ignore my texts and give me an attitude at work, everything about it literally rips me apart. By the way, thanks for muscle shirt hug. I want to hang out with you soon. I want that kiss. I want to see you when it's just you and I, so you can be heart to heart with me again, and not just the guy that you are in front of everyone else. I wish you were happier again and less serious. You're the best. I love you.
You're right. Things with ____ and I are awkward now. You say that you wish we had never dated. ____ wasn't a mistake, understand that. But I wish I'd never dated him either. I loved him, _______, but I loved you from the very start. I hope you know that I have him up because of you. Because it felt WRONG dating him in secret. Every time that I saw you, you give me a happiness that he couldn't always give me. I broke up with him because you're here. You've always been there. I can't see us together. You wouldn't date me, and I know that. But if you give me the kiss you promised, if you texted me first more often, and if you kept giving me your amazing hugs, I'd really appreciate that. All I'm really asking for is your recognition. Please let me know that I didn't make a mistake when I broke up with him, oh gosh, nearly a month ago. I broke my friendship with him. He hates me now! I've seen him twice and I've not said a word to him. He avoids me. He was the best guy I've ever been able to call my own. Let me know that I made a good sacrifice. What if I could one day call you my own?
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