by FallenSilent » Sun Jul 28, 2013 5:26 pm
Dear Mother,
Just because we've been getting along, doesn't mean that I forgive you. Keep that in mind.
-An Annoyed Daughter
Dear You,
I'm sorry, okay? I know that isn't what you want to hear, but it's true. I know I bother you, I know you don't like me. I'm sorry for that, alright? I just want things to be okay between us, is that so bad? I didn't think it was. I've figured out, that it's easier just to leave you alone, keep you out of my thoughts, but you know what? It's hard to, because almost everything I do reminds me of something we've done together. That kills me. I never wanted to give up. That isn't how I am. But you.. You've changed that. Our friend says I should choose whether or not to give up, we made a Pro/Con list. I don't want to choose, so I'm neutral on it. It keeps me happy to be in the middle. Giving up would eat me alive, but not giving up would break me to pieces slowly. So being between is easier, keeps me as sane as I could be, being me. You were the person I went to for advice, but you aren't there, so I have to help myself. I should thank you for that.
It's funny, really. People say that I was the one that knew you best, but we know the truth, don't we? I never knew you. I knew your reactions, your feelings at the moment, but I never knew you. I used to be the one to calm you down, keep you in line when things got crazy. I'm not doing that anymore, and it makes me wonder... Who will? Why was that my job? Why were we 'close'? I don't know. I never did with you.
-Frost