You just don't get it do you? You're verbally abusing me and you find it hilarious and genius. I don't find it funny, you see that laughing I'm doing? IT'S FAKE.
I can never mention my personal opinions at school because they're different than the Christian/Catholic ways and my friend's ways. I mention YouTubers and play songs I like around my friends and almost 9/10 times they're bashed and I'm made fun of. I have such a huge shyness and anti-social part to me I can't respond properly. I can't say, "Hey, I don't make fun of your opinions and bash them, so don't make fun of mine!" I just can't do it, my brain switches off when I'm bullied like this.
The worst part is that my good friends verbally bully me the most.
I'm not perfect guys, I get in bad moods, I won't change myself to what you like. I'm afraid of speaking against you because you somehow twist the conversation and row it right back at me. I make mistakes, I let out secrets and I need to speak my mind. I've become more and more quieter because I'm afraid of putting in my opinion. When attention is on me I just shut down. I expect you guys to support my opinions and likes like I do to you, not all the time, because I'm not perfect but I'm not going to perfect myself in your eyes. I'm getting tired of it, I don't even mention very much anymore, only what you guys like because I'm afraid of getting hurt. I've gone home and wanted to just almost change myself because I'm tired of it.
I SUPPORT GAY RIGHTS.
I said it, oh my gosh, crucify me, call me a sinner and a lesbian. Make jokes about me being gay, take my self-confidence that I've slowly been building up and crush it. I can't take this abuse anymore. My opinions are my opinions and you don't have to like them. Please don't make fun of me and run through the hallways screaming that I'm gay. Don't twist the conversation/argument that I'm winning and tell me that 'at least Im not the gay one'. Don't make fun of me when my eyes water and I get red-faced. My feelings are so sensitive and so much can actually set me off. Don't make fun of me for playing on websites that you don't like or listening to music genres you don't like. I often agree to things that are being said because I really can't bring myself to fight back.
My depression is coming back, I was too afraid to tell you guys I did have some depression for a few months. I was scared you'd make fun of me and call me emo. I can't process things quickly either and I say stupid things. I have a little bit of a stutter and I can easily mix up words. I feel like I'm loyal, but am I not? I can't tell. I feel like I'm a good friend and I don't deserve to be bullied like this. Am I wrong?
My eyes are watering and I'm sorry for my little rant guys, I think I'm going to just text a screenshot of this instead of taking this out here.