by The Great ME! » Thu May 17, 2012 10:24 am
*sighs and resists stabbing something brutally*
Oh yeah, I totally need this right now.
Yeah, I understand you did a lot, worked a lot the last twenty four hours, that you have a serious condition, and you're in pain, but REALLY? That doesn't mean you can tell me how the physical pains I suffer are non-existant in comparison, and I can continue to work and do whatever you tell me to. I'm too young to be dealing with leg and back problems like this, but y'know, I should just deal with it and it's my own fault for not taking medicine that'll give me frickin' internal bleeding or worse.
You tell me I need to get out of the house more and get together with people more. Last time I wanted to go visit my twin and another friend, you made it a big issue saying "You were JUST there!" when I hadn't seen him in two months. The only place I get to talk with anyone is online or at school, and even that's limited, and it's my only temporary relief from reality and de-stress I have anymore. And my real life friends never ask to get together or hang-out, but they go and ask everyone Else to hang out and do stuff.
I just spent two weeks on a 3-D model with fur and everything, that looked AMAZING and I put my heart into. Today I found out I can't ever finish, animate, or turn it in because the crappy computers can't handle it and won't even open the file now. I need to go to the office to be alone on my laptop and use the wi-fi so I can de-stress, before I end up either going insane or the Bad Thoughts win over.
And now you tell me as soon as I get home "I swear if you go to the office today I'll probably kill myself."
No...that's...that's just great, mother. I totally need that right now.
Other kids go out until 11pm, sleep around, get drunk and do drugs, get involved in gangs and crimes. I barely even leave the house, and have no social life, at all. I don't drink, or smoke, or any of that stuff. I stay home, and I help you out when you need it, do chores, make you food and bring it to you, most of the time with no complaints at all, even though I've had plenty on the tip of my tongue before, but I don't say them and keep helping out because I frickin' care, even though you seem to think I'm such a horrible demon child that doesn't care at all and does nothing for you.
Thanks. Just made my day.
I'm just gonna go cry now and hope my own suicidal thoughts don't decide to take over. Fun times~ /not
TT.TT
And this is what I get for caring about someone and trying to be good to them. Guess I should just turn heartless from now on.
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The Great ME! on Thu May 17, 2012 10:26 am, edited 1 time in total.
Year of the RoosterNeat, organized, alert, perfectionist, scientific, responsible.
Can be critical, egotistical, rough, opinionated.
When it rains it pours
When the floodgates open
Brace your shores
That pressure don't care when it breaks your doors
Say "it's all you can take"
Better take some more
Cuz I know what it's like to test faith
Had my shoulders pressed with that weight
Stood up strong in spite of that hate
Night gets darkest right before dawn
What don't kill you makes you more strong
And I been waiting for it so long
~”Light That Never Comes”, Linkin Park