I really just need someone to know this story, and I need some advice as to how I should go about this without gettig hurt. So, here's the story. I decided I'm just going to use their real names because it's easier ;n;
So, there's this boy named Thomas. We dated for about six months last year before everything just blew up and he took my heart and threw it down a hole. He was a complete jerk to me for the remaining month and a half of the school year, and finally I was sent off to my father's for the summer -- with no internet, phone, or anything worth using to communicate with my friends.
During these few weeks, I didn't do a lot to try and talk to my friends anyway. Most of them had betrayed me and went onto "Tom's side" anyway, because they liked him or didn't want to be the only person who would stand up for me.
Finally, at the end of the summer (two weeks before school started) my mom decided that she didn't want my sister and I to live with our father, and she let us come home. I ended up leaving to my friend Elizabeth's for a week -- who Thomas had been on-and-off dating all summer -- and we hung out with him a few times. He flirted with me the entire time and Elizabeth was mad beyond belief.
So, let's skip to just recently -- the night of Friday, January 25th. Thomas had admitted he liked me earlier in the week and he and our friend Keegan came to my house to hang out with me and my cousin, Crystal. We watched some movies and Keegan, my sister, and Crystal were all pretty much asleep. Everyone but Crystal was on my bed (a queen), and Thomas and I were all cuddled up to each other at the one end.
And he kissed me. (I mean we kind of made out, but I feel weird saying that ono") The next few weeks passed by rather quickly and it doesn't even seem like they happened. This is where my bestfriend, Robert (who's Thomas's cousin) comes in.
So, Robby lives with this kid, Carter. I babysit over at their house quite often, and Lyndsee (Carter's mom) had to go to Traverse and my mom wasn't answering her phone. Robby had to go to Tom's, so I ended up going over there with Rob.
We went to some kind of race-thing, and on the way their Thomas was holding my hand under the sweatshirt that was over our laps. We watched the race, and then we ended up walking around for a little bit on the lake. Robby fell in the ice and his feet got wet (just his feet fell in, lolol), so we went back to the car and Tom kept flirting with me and telling Robby, "Yeah, I'd kiss her," and stuff like that.
So that night, Rob got in the shower. I was laying on the opposite end of the couch as Thomas and he patted the spot next to him and said, "Come down on this end," so I did. In the end, we started kissing and I honestly don'g know how, but I ended up on top of him. Robby jumped out of the bathroom and yelled and saw us -- but he didn't see us kissing. He was like, "Woah.."
So then, he went back into the bathroom to get dressed and I moved off of Thomas and back to his side. He started kissing me (and not for the last time. :c) and the next thing I know is Thomas saying, "Oh, sh--." I look over and Robby is standing there. We both started blushing and Robby's like, "SEE I KNEW YOU TWO LIKED EACH OTHER."
For the rest of the night, Thomas kept flirting with me and telling me to sit by him and stuff. Then, we all decided we were tired and went downstairs and of course, Thomas had to lay in the middle and face me. He had to put his arms around me and pull me close to him, and then start kissing me again.
It was so cute uwu ;; The only problem is, I knew that everyone at school would be mad. Nobody wants us together. So I did try to push him away but every time I did, he would pull me back or tighten his arms around me.
Then his mom got home and they helped her carry in groceries. Finally, we went back to bed. Of course, Thomas was in the middle but this time I was trapped against the wall. So when he wrapped his arms around me again there was nothing I can do. Needless to say, he was kissing me again (like seriously get a piece of gum if your mouth needs something to do. I mean I like you but.. Idk haha <3) but this time, he ended up on top of me.
Finally, he moved away and we both fell asleep. Then, that morning at 4, we all randomly woke up at the same time and of course he had to start kissing me again. (In my head I was thinking, "It's four-in-the-f*****g-morning. You're lucky you're as attractive as you are.") Then later, when we actually got up, every time Robby wasn't looking he would like, sneak in little kisses with me. Robby would get sorta mad (COUGHjealousCOUGH) and tell us our lips were going to fall off. And then he kept tackling me on the bed and laying on top of me.
Finally, I was about to leave. But I couldn't find my iPod so Thomas came downstairs to help me find it. Eventually Robby cam down and we found it, but then Thomas and I were alone again because Robby went upstairs. So, I said, "Are you going to hug me, or what?" And laughed. But he did hug me. So he left the room for a second, and I sat down on the bed and was going to check something on my iPod, when he came around the corner, hugged me, gave me a kiss and left all non-chalantly. So we went back upstairs.
Thomas was sitting in the chair and Rob was on the couch. So I went over to Robby and sat down next to him. Thomas got up out of his chair, and squeezed in between the two of us. ;n;
Then I left. uwu
//long story is long.
So, my problem is.. We aren't dating or anything. But we obviously like each other; so I need some advice on what I could do to bring up that conversation without making him feel pressured or awkward. I've got a few ideas, but I want some input from other people.
Also -- should I do something for him for Valentine's Day? .n. Nothing to big; and, preferably something I don't have to do publicly. And I don't want it to be like a card or a pack of candy hearts. I want it to be something small.
And guys.. I love this boy. I didn't really ever stop but, these past few weeks reminded me of it. So, what should I do?
Thanks to anyone who read this <3



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