PerfectImperfection wrote:okay
i had my heart smashed yesterday

idk why but everyone randomly started dating...L is dating his crush now.I cried for literally two hours :'(
my eyes are tearing up right now its hard you know E, his crush and his girlfriend,
isnt that nice really,she a little snobby to me and to alot of other people
theres nothing i can do though right?
Like, it hurts, alot.
I really thought he liked me.....
but no.
I kept hoping, but it never worked.
It kept backfiring at me.
I guess i can be his friend?
The problem is that he's nice to me at one time then a total a** the next?
He almost tripped me two weeks ago because he was blocking the classroom door
and we were pushing
each other and he moved abruptly and almost tripped me and everyone laughed -_-
thanks a**
Like in gym when i'm on his team for Ultimate Frisbee he like ALWAYS passes to me acts all nice
His 'girlfriend' isnt in my class though, thank god D:
Like i asked my friend to quickly put my hair up in a pony tail before the game started and
I said."Oh my god, i bet like a retard like this!"
because it was really messy and stuff. L says:
"Oh no you don't you actually look good."
I really wanted to tell him to shut up.
I'm trying to stop thinking some things he does doesnt mean anything at all
It hard its working a little
I was over him for the whole summer then it came back...
I need help trying to forget him or else i'll just get my heart smashed even more

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My other crush, M, also got a girlfriend the same day L did
talk about friggin weird.
Of course, its A.....
shes like dated all the guys
She and him have known each other since second grade and i have too..
its seems that whoever i like, i get hurt
I now have trust issues
like if someone said: 'oh so and so likes you'
and said it like they were dead serious and not joking
i would deny it no matter what...
