I feel alone.
I want to go watch some TV and draw but the music here on the comp makes me feel comfortable.. plus there is no real thing to watch on TV.
Everything is cold and seriose and just augh, nothing fun on the Tv, wich is what I need, hopefully.
I feel like if I go, something will happen, that'll make me feel better... but it'll leave because i'm not here.
I can't do anything. It feels so uncomfortable in this house, like someone looking at you or your work is poisonus.
I'm sick as hell, sore and dieing and the baby's sick too, so my moms getting all angry and even though I try to help, and smile every one bad thing I do it seams to be like- i've just gone off and killed my father without authority.
And my dad... don't get me started.
When my friends leave, I want to whine and make them stay, but I can't, I still hide my feelings, though they know I love them, and when I see they're back after running off or something, but ignore me now, I know they have a reason, but I can't help feeling sad.
Damn it, it's so quiet, peacefull and lonely in this house when no ones home.
I wish no one was. And i'd feel bad for it, but I don't. 'Cause I know i'm not the only one who feels that way.
And I hate when my day's been going fine, alright, and then just one thing has to just come and be inconsiderit and agkjeypo4tdsf430tp[l... why do you think I think about others feeling? Because it can cause a lot in their world.
And i don't get why so many people don't see it. Maybe because I hide my feeling.
Sorry.
I don't know if weekends are that good anymore- or weekdays.
Whatever -shrug- life's life.












