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[arabella !!]

im already so stressed out and anxious about the school year to come. not only did I take two AP (advanced placement) core classes, but I’ve also taken Trigonometry. im not smart enough to do this. what am I doing?

Aaa, I remember stressing myself like that when I was in high school! Good luck with everything. I'm sure you'll do great. <33

[Radiation King]

Forget all of that, I’m finding an allergist. That’s literally all I need. I don’t need a physical. I don’t need blood tests. I don’t need to be poked at. We already know what the issue is. It was tested a long, long time ago. It’s in my medical records. There’s no sense in getting a doctor and having them do all that testing over again and getting charged for it, just for them to refer me to a specialist, when I could just,,,, go to the specialist in the first place and get treatment. I can worry about getting a physician to do checkups when I have actual options because I’m not just gonna go with the only one who’s accepting at the hospital we usually go to 😂

[i<3 wolves678]

Been to the doctors twice about what happened to me on Tuesday and I still feel really unseasy. Even on Wednesday when I made my last post on here, I still wasn’t quite in the right state of mind and even though everything has mostly settled now, I’m still worried that this is only the beginning of something far worse.

From what has been gathered it seems I likely suffered and episode of what was presumably a combination of depersonalization and derealization, given the events of that night matching almost all the main symptoms for both. While this is something that can simply be a one-off incident caused by immense stress (which I had suffered a lot of that day), I worry that due to the fact I have had many less severe experiences similar to this over the past year that it will continue to get worse. It doesn’t help that I suffer from various other things that heighten the likeliness of it either. While I haven’t had a proper diagnosis yet, judging from what the doctor said along with some additional research done on mental health sites (still taken with a grain of salt of course.) it seems like the most likely case.

I guess all I can do is try and prepare for the worst case scenario, but I keep thinking back to that night and it’s still so fresh in my mind. There have only been a few times where I have felt such immense fear in my life, including being stalked and having my house broke into (surprisingly by two completely different people-) yet all of those are nothing in comparison to how scary this feeling was.
Feeling like everything you do is simply a dream, that you’re watching someone else play everything out, body and mind numb to everything. Hearing people talk but not seeing them, touching objects only to feel nothing.
This is the only time in my life that I have properly screamed in fear. It was probably less than a minute but it felt like I had been screaming for hours. Words don’t do enough justice to the fear this feeling brought on.
I just wish this won’t happen again.

[dakotapaws]

i wish i was worth something
i just want to matter
to be something

[paleontology]

I honestly don't recognize myself anymore

[goobi the sociable]

i'm just so tired of my ethnicity being turned into a joke
i'm tired of people acting like i'm not a human being with feelings and emotions
and i'm tired of people acting like i'm stupid for saying that i hate it when they do this
i'm so tired of it
i hate this so much
why won't people just treat me like i'm human for once, instead of just a joke
it really does feel like the world is against me, and i'm not even exaggerating

[Wings.mov]

I wonder what people would think if I told them I thought I was depressed
"Oh please, you'll be fine in a few hours"
"You're just sad"
Maybe. maybe. But at times like this I just wish I had a reason to hate myself the way I do

Like now, in the middle of the night, I'm crying for no reason. Lost in my thoughts even if I shouldn't be there. I had a great day. Why??
I'm getting nightmares again. They're terrifying and sometimes horrific but they hardly faze me and that scares me the most
But I'm not stressed? Am I? God what is happening to me.

[Spearow]

i'm so depressed, i just don't have any will to do anything
no aspirations
i had a good day today, besides my toxic workplace
after work i went to the cinema with my friend to see annabelle (it was okay)
then i convinced her to go to the book store with me, i can look at books for hours
i ended up buying three
we went to a cafe and i got a coffee, my friend ate
she kept asking me what i was going to eat this evening
honestly, food sounds disgusting
my favorite foods taste like ash and grit in my mouth
nothing tastes good
so i just don't eat sometimes
my friend went to pay for her sandwich and came back with a to-go box for me
she said; eat this tonight and tell me how you like it
she's worried, i guess
i wish i wanted to eat this food
i do want to, but the thought of food is nauseating
everything is nauseating
i wish i wanted to do anything
i dread sleeping because i dread waking up; facing the next day
i just don't know what to do anymore
everything only gets harder
thinking about work tomorrow makes my stomach churn
i like working, but there are some people there that make it a place i don't want to be
i don't want to be anywhere
no where feels like home anymore
i can't get away
i want to scream

[farewell]

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[shihara]

it’s 3am and i don’t wanna type a lot but does anyone have any advice about getting over someone you’ve liked for a year that randomly got a girlfriend? feels like i got shot in the chest, and i’m not trying to stop talking to him i just wanna get over him. so. bad. pms please, i won’t remember to respond on the thread.