TheComfortCorner | V.8

[cribunni]

im already so stressed out and anxious about the school year to come. not only did I take two AP (advanced placement) core classes, but I’ve also taken Trigonometry. im not smart enough to do this. what am I doing?

[bloodclot]

i am really sad. my mom is in rehab and i am living with family members. i am sad because i feel extremely uncomfortable because of how bad my anxiety is in these types of situations. and it won't be for a few weeks at the least that i will be able to return home with my mother.
i also feel very sad because my mom was like a zombie when she first left. she was so slow, and just weird. she sounded very different. it broke my heart so badly and still does that i had to witness my mom like that. i feel betrayed by her as well, but i know she never meant to slip up. moments repeat in my head, like her telling me things will get better. it just won't stop.
i did talk to her recently though, today and yesterday, and she sounds really good. she sounds happier, a lot more upbeat i guess. it makes me really happy , and i hope she is okay. i just miss home and the comfort of just home with my mother. i just hhhhh

[hiero]

I feel like I've been dropped into an inescapable abyss. Of course that's not the truth. But it sure as hell feels like it.

[farewell]

Ha, I'm exactly the person I promised myself I'd never be.

[paleontology]

I just don't feel like myself anymore

[Radiation King]

Been thinking recently and I had the sudden realization that I could’ve felt this fulfilled years ago. I could’ve stood up to these people years ago but I didn’t because I avoid conflict and prefer to keep the peace. I hid myself and what I really wanted/what was best for me so other people wouldn’t be upset with or judge me.
But God.
Avoiding conflict/trying not to cause conflict was irrelevant the whole time. Conflict was inevitable with these people, I’ve learned that. It may be inevitable regardless. Of course that doesn’t mean I’d go out of my way to cause it because deep down I’d still rather avoid it, but I’m done letting myself get pushed around and just taking it. That may be my job some day but it isn’t right now, and certainly not in this context.
Now I’m out here doing what I want on my own time, ignoring conflict and meaningless opinions, and it feels so good. I’ve made friends and found hobbies. I go out and try new things, find my way around the universe. Every day is a new adventure, a chance to learn something different.

Lord. I should have done this a long time ago, but at least I’ve done it now. Better late than never.

[breadstick]

i wish there was more i could do for them. i know there’s only so much you can do to help, and i know it’s never fully going to go away, but they don’t understand that they deserve the world and that they can live through it.
i guess all i can do for now is just tell them they matter & to know that they can come and talk to me whenever, whatever im doing, wherever i am, whoever im with - but i just wish there was more i could do to actively help.
i know feelings similar, and they’ve helped me through that before, but it sometimes feels like a nightmare knowing the person you love the most is thinking that, and there’s so little you can do.
i just can’t wait until i know that i can physically hold them tomorrow.

[paleontology]

I think I want to leave

[onion]

just saying anyone on here can msg me if you need someone to talk to, im open !

[replicant]

Had lied to my doctor because my mom was in the same room. I would have told the truth otherwise. I might have something because the symptoms fit, but I wasn't diagnosed because I lied about not having them.
I need to make another appointment.