oh god I’m so scared
I don’t even know what happened yesterday but I never want it to happen again
I’ve mentioned on this thread in the past of a feeling I often get where nothing feels like it’s actually real and actually there, but last night something was so much worse about it.
It was the same feeling x10 and it couldn’t even feel myself this time, everything I touched felt like nothing at all, my eyes couldn’t focus on one point without my head spinning and what little of myself that still had feeling was numb and tingly. I barely remember anything of last night, I’d been sat in bed, minding my own business drawing and watching videos, and all of a sudden I realized how late it was. I had gotten upstairs pretty late, but it felt like I had only been sat there a couple of minutes when I had been up there at least an hour or so. I realized I couldn’t remember. That’s when everything else started. I couldn’t remember anything and five seconds after I’d do something I’d have to ask someone around me if it was really real and actually just happened. I still feel like I need to find someone and clarify last night was real. The feeling has still carried over a bit, but nowhere near as bad.
From what I do remember doing last night, I probably looked like a stereotypical insane person you see portrayed in horror movies and stuff. I remember being on the floor at one point, making sure to touch every object in the room and muttering that it was real under my breath. I just remember going in circles and running my hands up doors and stuff like that just to try and feel them. I remembered screaming a lot. I don’t know if that even actually happened but I remember screaming a lot.
I’m gonna go to the doctor next week, I don’t know what the hell happened, but this can’t be good.