this is sort of a vent but i needed to get this out and this is the perfect place
i'm obsessed with attention but i'm also afraid of it? i want to be the center of attention and have everyone love me and pay attention to me, but at the same time, i'm scared of being the center. i don't want to be paid attention to, but in the back of my mind i crave it. it's so confusing, and.. well, it certainly is a confession that i had to make to myself. i really want to get over this "i need attention and i'm so needy" phase of my life because no one really likes people who constantly need to be talked to and cared for??? but i don't know how to get over it. i tell my mother about it and she brushes it off, and i'm too scared to talk to my dad about it... i just,,,,, yeahh....
sorry for the vent on a happy little game like this <3 <3