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[nightmarixx]

yuck i'm back again, feeling pathetic for venting again

i hate pretending i'm okay, i hate putting on this fake smile for others, i hate my feelings, i hate everything about me
the verbal attacks from my mom just make me so afraid of her, i'm always sad, i can't ever stop crying for one day
it's just so so hard now, i'm struggling and losing this battle, but i'm so afraid, i'm always overthinking, all my friends are gone
except for like 5, i just want to be okay for once, i made people mad today for breaking up with someone, i did that for myself and my health, but god all these threats i've been getting make me have extreme panic attacks even if it online, but yes i may still like my ex, he doesn't feel the same, but i didn't break up with my current relationship because i still like J. i did it for my health, and i don't think anyone sees that. my mental health is decreasing so so bad, it's like i'm drowning, i feel so invisible and alone, and i'm terrified. lots of things happened to me when i was younger, but being told to get over it makes me feel so so worse.
i can't even call my dad, my own father anymore for what he's done and is still doing, he doesn't care about me, he even said he didn't care if i died, and hopes i die from a severe storm, to tell your child that, makes me so upset, like i'm just a chew toy to everyone, i hate this okay, i'm always being lied too, used, or taken advantage of, like my feelings don't matter. before this gets to long and i feel even more worse, i'm ending this vent here.

[SolsticeTheBanana]

My arm has been hurting me for the last three weeks and I think i might have a hairline fracture? Nothing major but it’s kinda annoying ;-; like I can’t really put any pressure/lift heavy things with it, and if I hit the part that hurts at all it stays in pain for a while. The part that hurts is right near my elbow, just below it, but for some reason when it is hit I feel the pain all the way down my arm and in my wrist. I don’t really know what to do about it. I’m not sure if I should get an X-Ray, that feels like a bit much, but I also don’t want whatever it is to get worse.

Also my right ear has been hurting for the last few months, and since that’s been happening I’ve been getting headaches daily. I got water in my ear a few times this summer, so idk if that’s the problem? But it’s just really pesky and I’m afraid that it’s starting to damage my hearing a bit? Like my head almost feels tilted when the pain is going on and I am starting to notice that it is harder to hear out that ear. It feels like someone is putting pressure on it from the inside. The headaches aren’t very fun either.
Today I hit my head really hard during a riding lesson and blacked out for a second, so it’s much worse, but overall it’s getting worse anyway as the weeks go by. I also don’t know if I should get that checked out?

Complaining to a doctor about either of these things seems rather petty and unnecessary. But I don’t want whatever’s going on in my arm to get worse, as it had been, today it was way worse. And I don’t want to hurt my hearing anymore by letting this earache just sit. If anyone has any ideas on what could be going on just PM please, not really an emergency I am just wandering.

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[Wings.mov]

She hasn't responded to me in a month. She told me her mind wasn't in a good place. It's been a month. She won't talk to me. I'm so scared and nervous and afraid I don't know what to do. Oh god. Please

[cribunni]

Hi. It’s me again. I heard you and C got together. That’s great, I’m happy for you.
I always thought you might like him. You always looked at him with such love.
Although, you used to look at me like that too. You’ve been keeping in touch with our friends.
That’s great that you’re still talking to them, I’m just sad that you’re talking to everyone but me.
I saw that your mom got married. That’s great, I hope you like your new step mom.
I just wish you would have told me she was getting married, instead of me hearing about it from L
A month later.
You seem to be doing really well, your life is going good. That’s great, I’m happy for you.
I just wish you weren’t doing so much better without me.
But thats okay. I’m happy for you.
So happy.

[the machine]

My school does not play fair
And I hate it.
They believe all the sporty kids should get rewards, bonus points if they are neurotypical
I attended and partook in a parliament for my entire state wearing my school's uniform.
All I got was a Facebook post
A neurotypical kid who excels in every sport is mentioned in assembly and is given rewards
I am helping change the government and some kid who is really good at sports gets way more glory than me?!
It's just not fair!
It's always been unfair to neurodiverse kids
Australia has something called a NAPLAN test, similar to the Iowa basic skills test,
Except the school doesn't get any funding from the government if all students fail
They said, when I was old enough to take it, that I shouldn't because I had autism
They said it would bring down their score.
I obviously took it and passed and did really well
But the thought that my school said something like that about me,
I just...
it destroys me

I just can't take it anymore
It's this build up of unfair things that may have lead to my anxiety
My school is to blame for my anxiety
And they aren't taking that blame
I want to change it but
The position that will allow me to do that will get snatched from me
I'm calling it right now
After I try to prove myself as my school's president of well-being
They'll give that position to a neurotypical student
And my chances of changing the school, so other students don't suffer what I went through, will be gone

I know I'm being dramatic but, I just want to change my school
And I fear that it'll never happen because of my school's behaviours in the past

[appi]

the equivalent of cheating

[size=50]hehe i'm alone

[spiderfish]

Clearly I'm just as invisible online as what I am IRL.

[Mooshidog]

my dad still hasn't found a new job.

i don't know anymore

[dxrmon]

im fine.