by neuroticism » Tue Aug 07, 2018 10:07 am
I'm sorry for posting what I did on social media.
I'm sorry I didn't take it down soon enough.
I'm sorry that I ruined our friendship.
I'm sorry that jealousy got the best of me.
I'm sorry I have become toxic to you... and others.
I'm sorry for not acting as mature as I preach I am.
I'm sorry for acting my age for once instead of being the better person.
I am sorry that I made the wrong decision.
I am sorry that I rant to you all.
I am sorry I never listened.
I'm sorry I deleted social media, I hope I can act better and listen to everyone more.
I am sorry I did not text my crisis hotline soon enough, she really helped me to be positive.
I am sorry to everyone I have hurt. I am sorry I allowed blind self hatred determine the way I treat others.
You all are important.
You dont deserve this.
You are all worth happiness and security.
I very honestly sorry for myself too... For allowing myself to enter an abusive relationship knowing that it was unsafe. For never listening to my friends and family and closing them off. For becoming an emotional mess. For throwing up from anxiety every single morning because what if he hates me. For losing everyone close to me. And because even though I knew I could not handle it anymore I still piled things on. I auditioned for shows, I let myself be scheduled for 9 hours every single day of the week work wise, i was studying and researching and rebuilding my resume, I was driving and getting things done all on top of being vividly mentally weak. I am sorry that I didn't take reflection time and me time.
I am sorry.
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