by hollyglow » Mon Nov 13, 2017 5:46 pm
Seriously.
My crush---yes, I'm still in love with her, I should be over her by now, but no---literally is confusing me so badly. Ever since the disaster of me asking her out, she acted really distant, not really talking to me, etc...but then over the weekend, she was back to normal, hugging me, touching me, talking to me, during our debate tournament. So, I could take it as a sign she actually did still like me, right?
Wrong.
Because being the sensative person she is, she casually informed me that she had a date the next day. She didn't seem happy about it, but she...did, if that makes any sense? It really hurt that she said that. So I tried to act normal, and I don't know if it worked or not, because we are supposed to still be friends, and friends should be happy over things like that.
Also, on a side note---I'm really irked. In the tournament, she apparently ran into someone who, in their professional debate case, actually said that sex ed is bad because it teaches kids to be gay, and---according to her---they literally used the phrase 'no homo promo'. In their case. Like, come on.
Anyway, point being, I'm kind of fed up. It's been two months, and I'm still feeling like this:
Jamie is over and Jamie is gone
Jamie's decided it's time to move on
Jamie has new dreams he's building upon
And I'm still hurting
Jamie arrived at the end of the line
Jamie's convinced that the problems are mine
Jamie is probably feeling just fine
And I'm still hurting
What about lies, Jamie?
What about things
That you swore to be true
What about you, Jamie
What about you
Jamie is sure something wonderful died
Jamie decides it's his right to decide
Jamie's got secrets he doesn't confide
And I'm still hurting
Go and hide and run away
Run away, run and find something better
Go and ride the sun away
Run away like it's simple
Like it's right...
Give me a day, Jamie
Bring back the lies
Hang them back on the wall
Maybe I'd see
How you could be
So certain that we
Had no chance at all
Jamie is over and where can I turn?
Covered with scars I did nothing to earn
Maybe there's somewhere a lesson to learn
But that wouldn't change the fact
That wouldn't speed the time
Once the foundation's cracked
And I'm
Still hurting
(And I have a whole list of other songs that match how I feel, but I can't even share that with anyone, because no one knows besides one friend that I asked her out. I really want to share the songs, but I can't, which I'm sure is part of my problem: pent up emotions.)
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SINGING THE SONG OF ANGRY MEN
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Hi! I'm Erin/Eren/Aaron. Um.
Not sure what else to put here...I
guess, I'm kinda an average
teen...ask my pronouns, please.
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to die for lack of love is horrible.
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the asphyxia of the soul.![Image](http://txt-dynamic.static.1001fonts.net/txt/b3RmLjk2LmZmZmZmZi5ZMk0sLjAAAAAA/gothic-extras.d.png)
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