officially moved out of university for the summer and now i'm back home and i just really don't want to be back here, and for 5 months??):
most of my flatmates left, but for the last like 4 days it had just been me and one other flatmate/my best friend and we just spent the last 4 days hanging out, colouring in, and watching movies and it was honestly actually so much fun being just us and i miss her a lot already, i want to colour in with her again): last night we went out to the shops and on the bus back she said that we need to try make more friends next semester but that we'd stick together and then she made me pinky promise it and she knows i take pinky promises very seriously so it was just really nice and sweet and it made me emotional.
i don't know why though but i'm lowkey really afraid that we'll drift or something now that we're further apart, like the last 4 days were just so good just living together and now it's gone and it makes me sad lol, i miss her a lot and i'm so bad with change and i hate being at home and she was just such like, a comfort and nice person to be around, and we laugh and have so much fun together and i really really don't want to lose her. i'm just really really glad i met her, like idk she makes me feel safer and like things will be okay and that i can cope with life if i have her. i feel like we're a good duo and we actually live in the same city (big city though) but like there was such a slim chance of us ever meeting tbh and the fact that we both found each other at uni when neither of us actually thought we'd end up at uni, and genuinely considered not even going before it started, i don't know, i'm just so emotional and my abandonment issues are just acting up lol i am afraid
moving out of uni has brought on a lot of emotions and i've just been crying non-stop for like an hour, i miss everything and i want to go back so bad already and i've been home literally one hour.