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[the force awakens.]

Hello guys! I haven't rode in a while, which really annoys me... Otherwise, I learned over the summer when my grandmother rode in shows (she stopped doing that), my horse rode Western and English shows. So I could have done a varity (I can't spell that word right, sorry) of different shows. So now I have to wait until hopefully winter to ride again when I go back to her farm.

[Toppyrocks]

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@Toppy: What's wrong dear? :c
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This is going to sound really bad and make me seem very ungrateful...

So at my barn, there's a few girls that are older then me, that have their own horses and show a lot. They are all very nice. Then there's one guy my age that has a horse, and my two friends that are mostly in the same boat as me. And then there's a bunch of younger kids, like 10-11-12. One of them is a complete spoiled brat, the younger sister of the guy my age. They keep her horse at home, though, so I don't have to deal with her much. And then there's another younger girl who is really nice and has her own horse. Her family works very hard so that they can keep a horse for her to learn on. It isn't even hers, it's just a free lease.

What's really getting at me now, is that so many of these other little girls are looking at horses to buy. None of them are really snotty or bratty or anything, it's just it doesn't seem fair. When I was their age, I didn't even dream of owning my own horse until I was much, much older. All I had was one lesson a week. And now here they are, all looking at fancy arabian show horses to buy and show all over the place. It isn't even like they've learned all they can from horses they can lease. None of them would be able to ride Jesse and show him, he's too much horse for them. They all ride the perfect little horses that are easy to ride and don't fuss over anything, and now here they are going to go buy horses.

It's just so frustrating, you know? I would give up so much to even be able to get a rescue horse and board it at a small stable someplace. And it's not that my family couldn't afford it, we probably could, but I'd feel awful asking my parents to pay for everything it takes to own a horse. It wouldn't feel right unless I could pay for most of it myself, and I can't. Plus there's the side that my parents seem dead-set against getting a horse, and keep questioning me about how long I think it'll be before it's time to move onto another horse, learn something different from some other horse. They just don't seem to get it, that sticking with one horse, even if you aren't learning as much, but building that bond and working together and teaching each other is so important. And I know for a fact that we are more well-of then some people who manage to keep horses and care for them are.

I dunno, I just feel really jealous and that's making me feel like I'm really ungrateful and not very good.
Sorry for the rant, it's just... gahhhh. All these people I know are looking for horses or getting horses.

[Rosalind]

I can completely understand and relate to that. It is incredibly frustrating and I think it's just natural instinct to be a little jealous. I'm a little jealous of them just from reading! Although I'm incredibly grateful for my difficult mare I'm free leasing, and I know you feel the same about Jesse, jealously is just something that comes up. I wouldn't feel too bad about being jealous, as long as you don't let it really affect you.

[OneRowdyNight]

@Rowdy: I missed your post, what happened?! D:

Sonoma my lease mare threw me in the middle of the show yesterday, though I can't remember anything that happened, and I got sent out in an ambulance. Nothing but a concussion, but Jessy (barn manager) doesn't want me on her.

@Toppy

That sucks. I completely understand where you're coming from. That was me last year. Just taking lessons and everyone else was looking at buying. It's super frustrating.

[Rosalind]

Man, that's rough. I'm glad you're okay! o.e

[.:HunterJumper:.]

I am so upset Deacon is lame <\3 I feel like a terrible owner,He is such an old guy! And I work him for like 30 minutes every day! And he is hurting </3

[Toppyrocks]

Yea I am very grateful for Jesse, and I think that I will feel much better once I start making more money and can pay for more lessons. My trainer told me last summer that she really liked how hard I worked for my riding, and she's told me again since. She said that she always thinks that people like you and I get more out of it, and work harder when we ride to improve because it means more. She also said that when she was young, her parents didn't pay for any of her riding at all, it was all from her. So yea, if I have time I'm going to work on my resume tonight xD

[Rosalind]

Exactly! It means so much more for us when we accomplish something. I also think we will stay into horses while those other girls might decide to quit.

[Plan on it Oliver]

^^'... Sorry you don't have to read this, its long and stupid...

@Toppy two of your posts ago of looking to buy horses: I love riding, I lease Rainy and my parents are letting me lease her(If I'm able to) all year. I dream of owning a tall mare that has that go go go attitude like her. I know I may never own a horse until I'm out of college and get a good job *Which will hopefully be a vet got to keep up grades!* Who knows I may not want to own a horse even when I get the money to own. I think its ok to dream have leasons twice a week, lease all year. But I agree girls at that age of 10-12 should wait until they know what thier future holds for them. My parents wouldn't agree no mater what to owning a horse, and its expencive everyone knows that. But who knows those girls could just think they're more serious then they are. I call it a PHASE! I have them almost every other weekend with some pet, and heck I don't give up but I understand why my parents say no and I know I'm just dreaming, but give those girls the benifit of the dought and let them dream and relize if being with horses their whole lives what they want. Trust me if everyone had a phase every now and then it isn't self-centered or what ever, but just life.

[classi]

@ Toppy; Ugh. That isn't fair at all... at a horse show once, I saw this girl who rode horribly riding her own pony. This pony was a hunter, had a great jump, and she looked so horrible on him. I just don't understand how some people get their own horses when they don't even deserve them.
I am so grateful for my half lease and really there isn't much more I want. I am so blessed to half lease Riley and I am very content at that.
I wonder why your parents don't understand? |: