Dog Owner Chat V. 5

[Spiritstar3]

I never posted about it, but I'm currently dogless :')
My best friend in the whole world was put to sleep in November and I've only just really started feeling it — she lived with my dad when I moved out because he's always been her world, so I didn't see much of her in the end. I think that's why it took a while to kick in. I visited him a while ago and when I got in his car and she wasn't there on the back seat I just cried.
She was my birthday present when I was young, and for every moment after that she was there. When I was happy she was there, when I was sad she was there, if I cried she liked to "clean up" my face afterwards which is gross but I never minded. She'd walk with me back from primary school and I taught her "mush" so she'd pull me up the steep hill home, haha. She was so loyal and people would say they wished they had a dog like her.
I have a scar on my foot from getting between her and my friend's feral cats that lunged at her while she was lying down minding her business. 16 years of my life with her and now she's gone, it just doesn't feel real??
We buried her on my friend's land where she was born and planted a tree over her, and I had to dig her grave while she was still alive and i sobbed so hard. It felt like I was wasting what little time we had left. Lying her down in there and watching her get covered with dirt was even worse. She just looked so cute, like she was sleeping, and seconds ago I'd been holding her and getting so much snot in her fur while I cried.
Genuinely not sure I'll ever recover from this lol. She held my life together in the throes of teen angst and I just feel so incomplete without her. I want another dog, but we have to wait until we get a bigger house, so that'll be a few years away at least — and I just don't know if anyone is going to be as good as her. I don't want to compare anyone with her, I know that's not fair, but she made up so much of my life I just don't know how to not want them to be like the best dog I've ever known.
Bit of a downer post, I just miss my Ruby-Doo "Chicken"
She was such a little freak but she was unique and I loved her so hard, even if she loved my dad more :')

Everyone please give your puppies (young and old) a little kiss from me. I hope they live long and happy lives.

I’m sorry to hear that.
My first dog (mine, not a family dog) was put to sleep years ago, and I still miss her. My cat was also put to sleep like 3 years ago, and I miss him. Even my rats from high school. I still cry about my rats at times.

XD I’ve been kissing my puppy everyday.

Edit:
More pics

https://imgur.com/a/bw1DQm8

[AdamJ]

older pic of him but one of my favorite
I ultimately have more photos of him then anyone else just due to him understanding stand and stay while standing.
https://imgur.com/hgUXWRo

[Spiritstar3]

Love that picture

[AdamJ]

completly forgot i was able to post pictures and not just links. here is the current pack.