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"Well, you thought wrong. I am perfectly fine with being by myself-but someone like you probably wouldn't know about being alone, now would you?" Heidi snapped back, her tone still as icy as the look she gave him at that moment. It had been the truth, at least. Heidi knew that someone like this boy, this boy who was so much cooler than her, wouldn't know the first thing about being alone. He was probably either always with one of his friends, or with a girl. It wouldn't surprise Heidi in the least if he always had one of his little followers trailign behind him. Why couldn't this boy just leave her alone, why did he have to be so persistant? And what did he want with her, anyway, in the first place. Heidi clearly doubted that it had anything to do with her having any company. No one else cared if she was alone, why should some boy she had never even met before?

At his question, Heidi shot a look at the boy in confusion. Why did he care so much, anyway? "Because my father's job causes us to move around a lot. Why do you care?" she muttered, her voice low and dangerous.

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"You're wrong." Before he could stop himself, the words were out of Kurt's mouth. He felt a surge of annoyance; she seemed to think that she was such a victim here, and that no one else had ever felt misery? For a moment he was silent, trying to cool his temper. It wasn't common for him to get mad; most of the things that people said didn't effect him in the slightest. But the words that came from this girl, however, seemed to impact him more than anyone else's ever had. "I may seem like some stuck-up rich kid to you, who has everything I'd ever wanted... But I don't want any of it." His voice was intense, and he ran a hand through his hair, gritting his teeth together. "These last eight years, I've had to pretend to all of those people that I liked being around them and their artificial thoughts... that I liked being the center of attention at all times." He hesitated, unsure of why he was telling her all of this; she probably didn't care.

"I can be surrounded by a group of hundreds of people,
and still feel completely alone."

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At his words, Heidi found herself looking at him slightly differently. Perhaps it was a bit less cold; the icy look in her eyes was still there, sure, but it seemed to be a bit less harsh than it had been a few moments before.
Heidi finally stopped walking, turning to face the boy before her. Who was he trying to fool? Did he actually think that she would believe his little story? She narrowed her eyes until they were slits. "As if I'd actually believe that; you seemed pretty darn happy back there, with your little group. Not like someone who feels completely alone." She shook her head, turning to look down and study the sand beneath her feet.
If his story was true, although Heidi clearly doubted that it was, then what did she have to do with it? It wasn't as if she could help him or anything. And it wasn't as if she would want to, either.

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Kurt smiled wryly. "After so many years of it, I think that anyone would be good at pretending." It was true; every year he would become better and better, until now, no one doubted that he was the happiest guy in the world; to anyone else, he seemed like he had a perfect life. His parents were rich, he was the coolest person in school, and he lots of 'friends'. Nobody got to know him enough to realize that his parents were never around, and had never really loved him. The friends he supposedly had were as artificial as plastic, in his opinion. He had never really chosen to have this; during his depression so many years ago, the other kids had just adopted him into their group, because of his good looks, and sports skills.

For a moment he hesitated, unsure whether he should just walk away. This girl looked like she wanted nothing to do with him. Why am I even bothering? He glanced over at her, then blinked. "Look... I know you're probably wondering why I'm bothering you..." His voice trailed off. "The real reason is that you remind me of someone I lost a long time ago." He knew this sounded lame, but it was true; a small part of him hoped that he could have his old friend back, but she was making it sort-of difficult for that to be possible.

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Heidi knew he had a point, although she would never admit that. And she also knew that she was just being overly harsh to the boy, as well; he hadn't done anything to her, really. Just because he hung around with people she disliked shouldn't mean anything. Perhaps he was as nice as he seemed to be. As she thought that, Heidi told herself that she was thinking foolishly. They were all the same, the 'cool' kids.
Every single one of them. Even this boy.

Shaking her head, Heidi turned once more to face the boy. She studied him for a few moments before speaking. He truely didn't seem as if he intended to make fun of her, or anything of the sort. No, he seemed genuinely nice. But, she reminded herself, seeming was not the same as actually being something. "Look-" she began, unsure of how to reply to that. She reminded him of someone he had lost? Faintly, she wondered who it was. At first, she wasn't going to ask. But then curiosity took hold and she gave into it. "Who?" she asked, her voice tentative and soft.

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Again, Kurt hesitated, unsure if he should share it with her. If she gossiped about what he would say, and it came back around to the cool people, he would be banished. Smiling faintly at the thought, he didn't care. "When I was younger, I was best friends with this girl," he explained. "This was before the whole popularity thing started, of course... We were good friends for a really long time, then she moved away, and I never heard anything back from her." He wasn't sure how she would reply to this, but he continued anyway. "After that happened, I got really depressed, and the people from my school just assumed that I was just one of them; they treated me as if I were perfect... Flawless." He had had good looks, and his parents being rich had made people all like him more. Silently his gaze travelled back to the ocean out in the distance. "I didn't care at the time, so I just let them. After a while, I just got used to it, I guess, and I pretended to like them and all." No one else in that school was a truly genuine person; they were all pretending to be people they weren't; that's why he hadn't made any new friends after her. "That's how you get people like Kelly over there; that's what I have to put up with every day." He grimaced; everyone in their group was like that.

"So I guess when I saw you, I just realized that I've been throwing my life away this whole time with them, and I..." His voice trailed off. "I just wanted to get to know you better."

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Heidi blinked in surprise. Well, that was...surprising. Not only was she surprised that there had been a time when this boy hadn't been popular, but he also truely seemed as if he hated the group of people he had just appeared to be very happy to be around. Perhaps there really was some truth behind what he was saying.
Heidi placed her fingers in the back pockets of her shorts. She had quickly slipped on a pair of shorts and a t-shirt over her swimsuit, for she didn't feel comfortable with just walking around in only a bathing suit. Heidi knew that most of the girls around here felt very comfortable walking around like that, but she had never felt comfortable with herself. In anything. She knew that it made her look silly, walking around the beach in shorts and a shirt while every other girl you'd see wasn't. But Heidi had gotten over the looks long ago.

So, she reminded him of an old friend, huh? That was definitely not what she had expected. Heidi frowned slightly, remembering back to her own childhood. She hadn't had very many friends and her old best friend had been a boy-Kurt. He'd been so sweet and kind-hearted and Heidi hadn't thought that anyone could ever replace him.
And she had been right. No one ever had. When she'd moved away, it felt like she had left a piece of her behind with him. She had quickly lost connection with him and had often wondered what had happened to him. Was he happy? She hoped. Had he made new friends? He had to have, he was so likeable and nice. Heidi looked down, a small frown on her face.

The two pieces didn't quite connect in Heidi's head, however. She didn't realize that maybe, just maybe, this could be her long-lost friend from her childhood. Her mind had wandered elsewhere. Looking back up at the boy, her expression was distant. "I'm...sorry," she said, her voice soft. It was the truth, at least; she really was sorry for this boy. He seemed to unhappy with his life. It seemed, to Heidi at least, that after his friend had moved away that his life had went downhill.

I guess we have something in common, then, she thought.

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Kurt shrugged at her apology. He didn't want her to feel pity for him. "No need to apologize," he said briskly, in his it's-all-cool-tone that he was so familiar with. He often acted in a distant way, which made the girls all sigh and call him mysterious, secretive... None of these nicknames made him any more affectionate towards them, however. He pushed the thoughts of his friends out of his mind, and ran a hand through his hair. "So... Hey, I'm Kurt, by the way," he added casually, smiling slightly. He thought that she ought to at least know his name. He found himself wondering why he had chosen a complete stranger to pour out his secrets to; secrets that no one knew. Silently he bit his lip, glancing up the sidewalk.

"So did you change your mind about hanging out with me now?" He grinned, crossing his arms loosely across his chest. The girl did seem to be less irritable now, and he hoped that she had changed her opinion about him. It would be nice to have a friend that didn't like him only for his status in the school; the concept made him uncomfortable.

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(( It's fine haha. ^^ ))

Back to the aloofness, was it? Well, Heidi could play that game as well. Putting the mask of complete passiveness back onto her face, Heidi simply nodded in reply. Heidi often wore that mask and knew that, more often than not, the 'cooler' kids did so as well. Probably for different reasons, sure, but it was still the same, uncaring look.

However, that mask fell when the boy gave his name. Kurt. Kurt? Kurt? It couldn't be possible. It had to just be a coincidence, right? Yeah, that had to be it. Heidi found herself staring at him wide-eyed, clearly surprised. "I..." she started, unsure of what to say. She didn't want to be wrong, and say something that would make the already awkward situation even more awkward. But what if it were true, what if this really was him? Swallowing against the lump that had formed in her throat, Heidi forced a quick smile upon her face.

"I, er...yeah, I think I have," Heidi replied. Her voice was soft, just barely above a whisper. "I'm Heidi, by the way," she said, extending her hand. No matter who it was, Heidi always shook their hand. It was the polite thing to do, after all. She waited, seconds seeming to turn into minutes. If this really was the boy she had left behind so many years before, then he would recognize her name immidiately, as she had with his.

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Kurt's mouth almost fell out as she introduced herself with her name. He bit his lip, wondering if it were possible what she was saying. He had, of course, suspected that it was her, but now... Now it was obvious. "Heidi Lynn?" he said in a choked voice, his dark brown eyes brighter than they had been in years. The fire of happiness that he had at one time had every day had been gone for so many years; but now it seemed slightly anxious and uncertain. But didn't she remember him...? Her reaction to his name should have caused something.... Heidi however, seemed didn't seem at all shocked or happy. "Are you..." His voice trailed off, and he grinned, a genuinely happy smile.

Memories began to flood him. He remembered how the two had met, back in the first grade... How they had played a trick on Mrs. Benson next door... All the laughs, and the happy moments. The worst was the memory of them when they were saying goodbye, promising to keep in touch. A promise that was never kept. It seemed almost impossible that after so many years, she was back. Here next to him. "You remember me, right?" he asked quietly, waiting anxiously for her reply. What if she had forgotten him after so long?

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