by Shellpepper » Fri Feb 15, 2013 5:02 pm
"I-," his voice broke, he shook his head. "I just- I hit her! I hit you!" He ran his hands through his hair, gripping his own shoulders. "Kylar I lost control! Gone!" He was breaking down again, pacing wildly. "What if I did that to Lilly? Or Alis? Marcus?! What if I lose control on Lisette again?!" He punched a tree hard enough to send leaves cascading around him and re-split his knuckles. "I'm slipping away every damn day! I can feel myself going! I pushed her last month! I hit you and that woman today!" His tongue was moving too fast, his words were just a stumbling, jumbled blurr and he hit the tree again, not because he was angry but because the pain it brought was pain he felt he deserved. He didn't realize what he needed- an outlet for stress and pent up energy- he just saw that he was becoming like his father.