by SunnyJustice » Tue Dec 22, 2015 4:36 pm
Rowan was, once again, alone in his study hall. The apology with Diana had gone well, far beyond his wildest imaginings. However, there was an issue he needed to address, and it involved a certain girl from District Four. For six years in a row, no District Four girl had been completely sane.
Rowan was probably the worst person in this situation to deal with Clair, especially because of his 'style' in the Games. However, Apricot was not available, and Elm had just signed off on an excursion to watch over the Games. Rowan chuckled, thinking of his aunt Elm, probably gazing so longingly at Adria Caraway again. Sometimes Rowan wondered why, and sometimes he theorized...
He was snapped out of his thoughts when Clair finally arrived.
"Oh, hi Rowan," said the girl, completely casual as she picked up the nearest book. "I'm dreaming, that's obvious... ooh, you have a book about killing methods. Do you think I can take this back into the real world and show it to Theodore? Or I can memorize the whole thing and tell it to him!"
She flipped open the book. Rowan quickly took it away, closed it, and hid it under a pile of documents. "I do apologize for my rudeness," he said gently, "but that would not be beneficial."
"Why?" pouted Clair.
"I'm very sorry, Clair, but your behavior is disturbing many members of your alliance -- living and dead. How do you think Theodore feels after your conversation with him?"
"I think he's confused," said Clair honestly, blurting out everything. "Maybe he's just deciding how he's going to do it. I don't mind how, as long as it's him. Just being around him always makes me feel so warm. His eyes are very nice, too, I want to stare into them as I-"
"Clair, please..."
Clair didn't listen. "You're dead, right? What was it like? You seemed to be happy when Lily sn-"
"This is a dream, Clair," said Rowan. He came up with the most realistic-sounding thing that would make Clair stop this. "I'm not real. Yes, I am dead, but I can't tell you what it was like because I'm a figment of your own imagination -- and you don't know."
"Can I imagine my brother over here?" said Clair, seeming to focus hard.
"I don't believe so," Rowan said frantically. He was not helping, he was just digging himself into a deeper and deeper hole. "It doesn't work that way. Anyway, Clair, Ed told me about the canary incident."
"Hey," said Clair with a huff. "I got in big trouble for that. But I was just really curious -- I wanted to know. My parents said it was evil, but..." She trailed off then.
"We all have a little evil in us," Rowan whispered, putting his hand over his heart. "I just want you to accept that you do, too. It's okay to have some bad in you -- as long as you have good in there, too. And as long as you recognize what is right and what is wrong, and truly try to do the right thing. Clair, you have to look at the shadow you cast, before you know where the light is coming from."
"I don't know," said Clair. "All this stuff about being good and bad, it confuses me. I never really thought about it, honestly, Rowan."
"I think you should," Rowan responded. "It would be for the best."
"Okay!" Clair said cheerfully. "I'll try! So... what about Theo?"
"He is very upset. I'm sorry to say, Clair, you have disturbed him deeply," said Rowan apologetically.
"Why?" whispered Clair, trembling a little. Her perpetual smile fell from her face, for once, and Rowan prayed she wouldn't cry. "Did I do something bad?"
"I don't think you understood," Rowan replied, "but when you talk about your own death so happily, it scares people. Please try to reflect upon this."
"Okay," Clair said tentatively. "If I hurt Theo's feelings by being evil, do you think I can make him like me again? 'Cause I really like him, and I don't want him to be upset."
"I think if you put in your best effort to understand," Rowan responded, "he will be understanding too."
"I will. Thanks, Rowan, or figment-of-my-imagination-whatever!" said Clair, smiling again.
Rowan mentally breathed a sigh of relief. It was a start.
"Thank you, Clair."
He let the dream fade and allowed Clair to return to an undisturbed slumber. Oh, now he was going to be in deep disgrace for this -- when Clair died, she was going to find that he was, in fact, real. Someone, be it Clair or a fellow Adamson, would definitely beat Rowan with a frying pan.
Oh well -- it was better than allowing Clair's reign of terror to continue. Maybe things would change now. Rowan hoped so... but he didn't really believe it.
And that worried him deeply.
"Yes," responded Maple simply. She could tell Theodore was thoroughly disturbed after Clair's conversation, and Maple set a hand on her ally's shoulder reassuringly. She sincerely hoped Clair's insane speech was a passing phase of her fatigue. Either way, she would demand an apology from the girl to Theodore. Scaring him in such a way was unacceptable.
"Want to talk?"