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[Silent Scream]

Charlie shook her head and pursed her lips; "It's not just one thing . ." She struggled to explain her life-long self hatred; "It's like a big ball inside of me that's been there forever, and every little thing I do adds to it - even little unimportant things like typos. . . Everything." She'd never felt more vulnerable in her life. . But she'd also never felt so free.

[puppyeyez94]

Jessie nodded, understanding the feeling. "Then just let go," he suggested.

[Silent Scream]

Charlie sighed; "Trust me - I've tried." She attempted to laugh, but it came out sounding wrong.

[puppyeyez94]

Jessie gave her a smile. "Then don't think about it."

[Silent Scream]

"What can I think about, then? Everything leads me back to it. ." She asked. It felt good to actually say what she thought.

[puppyeyez94]

Jessie shrugged sipping his water. "Everything I guess."

[Silent Scream]

Charlie laughed; " I shouldn't have told you - It sounds stupid, even to me." She looked down

[puppyeyez94]

"It isn't stupid!" Jessie objected, smiling. "Why would it be?"

[Silent Scream]

Charlie shrugged; "It just is. . That's why I never told anybody. . It's impossible to explain right. . Like trying to explain the color yellow to someone who can only see blue. . Y'know?" And then she sighed in frustration.

[puppyeyez94]

"Kinda," he said, sighing slightly.