Broken_Emotions & Silent Symphony Private RP!

[Light.The.Lamp]

((nope just a very busy girl!
On the other note, hows life going?))

"It seems like you're trying to give me a new middle name. I can't figure out if it's Crazy or if it's Adventure though." Aubrey giggled joking with Xavier. "Are you more excited or are you still worried about millions of things that could go wrong?" she asked suddenly.

Nikolaus chuckled. 'You don't want me to answer that question." he warned her easily. There were plenty of things he could name right away that Wolfgang was. Yet he also knew that half of them wouldn't be things you would tell someone you just met that day. "But I'll gladly stay here and listen to you answer your own question and see how drastically different the two opinions are." He squeezed his eyes shut 'gladly stay here' another one of those small slip ups Nikolaus knew he was going to dread in only a few short seconds.

[anonymouse]

(( Haha good, sometimes that's ?sadly? the way it goes. *sigh*
Busy myself with just about everything. Whenever I think I can breathe for a moment, BAM, there's something I need to worry about, work on, or do. :( It's sad but I can't do anything about it. ))

"What really is your middle name?" Xavier asked. She had most likely told him before but he had a horrible memory when he least expected it. A shame really. But there was no way to avoid it besides posting Post-Its around his house about absolutely everything. Which would annoy him to no end. So it was a lost cause trying to improve his memory. "I'd say both at the same time." He gave a small smile. The nerves would flutter inside his stomach until they had actually survived their first day outside of FBN. And it was looking to be a long way off...

Instantly Wolfgang stiffened. Her heart gave a painful squeeze before settling into a much faster tempo. Gladly? Wolf would never go that far. Even though she probably would like to stay around Nikolaus, she simply did not think about it or about him that way. She had to keep reminding herself that she was not here to make friends. She was here to find what she would going to do with her life.
But Wolf couldn't reply. She didn't know what to say. Staring at the tree in front of her and holding back the terrible memories and tears, Wolfgang sat in an uncomfortable silence. She felt sore and wounded. All Wolf felt like doing was curling up under warm blankets and sleeping until Nikolaus would leave her alone. Yet, at the same time she didn't want him to go. Unsure how she could feel so differently, Wolfgang swallowed and held her hands tightly so they wouldn't shake. No signs of weakness. No signs of weakness.

[Light.The.Lamp]

((yes same same! I think it's school and winter coming everyone is just stressed.))

Aubrey smiled. "Marie." she replied easily. "I don't know too plain for me. Aubrey Marie Anderson just seems too plain for me." She shrugged. Thinking back she couldn't even remember if Xavier had told her his middle name, or even last name for that matter. "Now I'm normally good at remembering things like this but what's your middle name?" she asked him.

Yeah that was a bad idea, another stupid thing said in the book for the day. And gosh, was that book growing by the moment. He looked at this hands, the silence killing him, his thoughts going through his mind were enough to kill him, and now having nothing to pull him back from them wasn't going over to well. "That didn't come out right." he sighed. "Once again." he added softly.

[anonymouse]

(( It still feels like the first week of school. D: NOT easy, Love, not easy. Yet, we must pull through! Onward ~<3 ))

Xavier thought about that. Should he make her guess? Or, just tell her?
"Would you believe me if I told you I forgot?" Of course Xavier couldn't forget his middle name but he didn't like to think about how it was his father's first name as well. And when didn't he take a chance to impossibly annoy Aubrey? It just came naturally. Plus, she always smiled at him when he did. So far he couldn't see anything better than making Aubrey's face light up in a smile. Maybe the fact that she was his and he was hers would top it. But then he thought of a thousand more things that could be better than that even. It was a very happy day when Xavier couldn't think clearly.

Wolfgang felt a small sliver of hope - hope that she would come out of this strongly - as an inkling of her anger flickered to life.
"Then what would it sound like if it did come out right, Nikolaus?" A bitter tone touched Wolf's words. Part of her was smirking, glad she was biting back at Nikolaus. But she couldn't help but feel terrible. Nikolaus was just trying to help, right? So why was she turning away every single act of kindness he showed? Wolf turned away. She wouldn't look at him, not to see how hurt he could be nor how angry he could get himself. She wouldn't do it. She couldn't do it. There was no way Wolfgang would let him win. Not this time, not any other time. She didn't need him. She'd proven that but maybe, just maybe, she didn't need him, but she wanted him. A friend, someone to talk to when she couldn't sleep, someone, anyone. And just like that Wolf felt a sense of longing for something she had never had. And, of course, she realized that terribly wonderful fact after she had practically hissed in Nikolaus's face. Now how was he suppose to forgive her? She didn't make it easy. But she couldn't go on forever. Silently Wolfgang wished Nikolaus would stick with her, push through when she was an antisocial brat, and all the other times. Just once she wished someone would give her a second chance, a third, a forth, as many as she needed for when she threw all of them away. Wolf wouldn't be broken down easily, but with time and a few of the right words, Wolf knew she could give Nikolaus a chance. Perhaps.

[Light.The.Lamp]

"Well if you were to tell me that I surely wouldn't believe you." Aubrey replied with a smile. "I don't think it's something that you can just forget. But then again, who knows I might be wrong. So with some good explanation maybe I'll believe you." she laughed softly. "But if that's the case and you really don't remember then I'll give you another one." she nodded. It was silly to think that Aubrey could be about to give Xavier a new middle name, but she did believe that everyone should have a middle name, and forgetting it consisted of not having one.

Taken back by Wolfgang's tone he held back a soft gasp. He'd done it once more, saying more stupid things, and even though that he shouldn't care this much about Wolfgang he held back any of the nasty rude comments he wanted to unleash at her. He was going to change, to be a better person. "If i said it right, I would have added a few more things in there that you wouldn't have liked any more that what I said. Or I could have answered your first question and we'd still be in this place. So really nothing comes out right. I'm a fool that can't get anything right, you happy now?" he asked. "I've done everything but tell you what I want to because well." he cut himself off. "Never mind, that will just keep this going." he grumbled resting his head in his hands.

[anonymouse]

(( NNNNNNNNNUUUUU I had a fab reply and then BAM. Computer goes all 'Internet not working' so what does it do? Shut down the internet and only when I sign in with this lame thing called Safe Eyes does it work. Grrr *dino rampage* So my post might be later than usual. >: ))

[anonymouse]

"Hm." Xavier paused, thinking it through again. He couldn't imagine having a completely different middle name. Yes it was his father's name, yet, now it was Xav's. Right?
"My middle name is James. It was my father's name. But I wouldn't change it if I could." After hearing about what his father did, Xavier had thought about it. If his first name had been James, like his father, he would have surely changed it. But as a middle name it really made Xavier think. "There had been a time when I was younger that I was proud to carry the name. but now? Not now. No, maybe not." Xav gave Aubrey a sad smile. He hated how things always seem to go down-hill whenever him and Aubrey talked in depth. But of course some things just had to be spoken out loud.

Wolfgang knew she shouldn't. She knew it was against what she should do. But she couldn't help herself. Wolf leapt to her feet and finally turned to face Nikolaus with a dark glare.
"Why do you do that? Why don't you stick up for yourself!? Whenever I say something, sure call it hot air, you instantly back down! Why? Why do you let me get away with it all? Why do you let someone as stupid as me get away with it all?" Wolf gave a shrug hotly, her temper flaring. "I say whatever I do and you just let it slide. Why? Don't you show me that you actually have a backbone?" It was low. Too low for Wolfgang. Annoyance and anger glittered in her green eyes but there was a small hint of sadness in her eyes. Her legs still felt weak as if she might actually break at any moment. But part of her really did want Nikolaus to fight back. Show her what he was really made of. Not just a body full of wise words. Why couldn't he really get in her face? She knew how to fight but to go along with kindness? Not so much.

(( This post isn't nearly as good as the first one was. D:
And the evil double posting. Gr! ))

[Light.The.Lamp]

((oh but I think it's a lovely post!))

Aubrey thought for a moment, Xavier James. It seemed to fit him, and yet, the fact that his fathers name was James bugged her as well as Xavier. Wondering if something like wise happened to her if she would too have thought about changing her name. "Oh don't be so upset. The past is over. If we don't talk about these kinds of things there will always be thing we don't know about each other." she replied kissing his nose softly. She smiled to reassure him things would be okay.

Nikolaus looked up at Wolfgang, standing up himself getting a bit angry. "You know what. Maybe I let things slide because I want you to actually see that you don't need to fight and run away from everything. Maybe it's because I want to show myself that I'm not useless that I can help people. Or maybe it's because I hate seeing people hurting." he huffed back at Wolfgang. "I know nothing about you, but already I can tell that you've got no clue where you're going, or why you're going there. You just want to find something that will show you you aren't alone." he snapped back. "And maybe if you actually to the time for someone else, you'd see I'm trying to be that person." He sighed clenching his fists. Nikolaus hated getting mad.

[anonymouse]

(( :p You liar. xD ))

Eve's eyes snapped open. Nightmare + Thinking She Heard Noises = Skittish Eve. She sat up quietly, not wanting to wake Jayden, and listened. Had she really heard a noise? A click of a gun? Or was she just letting her imagination run away with her? Trying to shake off the nightmare, Eve settled back into the many pillows, turning away from Jayden. She could have swore she heard a small click of a gun or a lock. But it was impossible that they men had followed her and Jayden all those many miles? Right? Doubting herself, Eve huddled into a small ball. Now she wanted Jayden. But she didn't dare to wake him. He tried to hard to make everything perfect for her, the least she could do was to let him sleep. So Eve wrapped the covers around her and listened with her ears straining. She had to be sure...

Xavier blinked in small surprise when Aubrey lightly kissed his nose. She was so cute that way. He nodded, taking her words to heart. If he just ignored them then where would he be?
"I see what you're saying." He smiled, genuinely, and kissed Aubrey right back. He would never get tired of doing that... She was so easy to kiss, it came so natural to him, but he found a shiver running down his spine in delight every time.

Wolfgang held back a smirk. She didn't give away any sign that she was... glad? ... to cause someone else to be miserable as well. She kept a straight, emotionless face. As Wolf liked to call it, her poker face. But she did feel a little sense of a sharp pain. He was striking too close to home for her liking.
"I don't run away from everything, I don't fight. And you've known me for less then half a day and you think you can tell me who's hurting?" She bit back, her eyes slitting behind the thin film of tears that wouldn't go away. "You're right Nikolaus. You know nothing about me. You can't prove that I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. Maybe, just maybe, I would have put that plan into motion but I had a stubborn boy hanging around, saying he wanted to help me." Wolfgang knew she was cutting it close. She could easily be going to far. But it was too late to go back. Of course Wolfgang didn't know what she was going to do with her life. But Nikolaus didn't need to know that. "Claiming he had been there, he was still there. His tone was so soothing that I thought I could finally let myself relax!" Wolf looked down for a moment, biting her bottom lip so as not to let the tears fall. "But I couldn't take that chance. I still can't take that chance." She said in a whisper, though she was still speaking in a deadly way.

[Light.The.Lamp]

((I am not! I did think it was lovely!))

Jayden rolled over, sleeping easily on the couch. Dreams of the world flashed over his vision. Of course every dream accompanied with Eve by his side. Jayden couldn't seem to think of things any other way and really he didn't want to. He was normally a very light sleeper, but with the events from yesterday and only a small amount of rest last night, he was completely gone.

Aubrey smiled as Xavier kissed her back, a light flutter in her hear, and his kiss still made her blush. She found it almost childish, but quickly reprimanded herself for even thinking anything close to that. Still blushing and having her heart skip a few beats was just a show of love, and made her realize just how important Xavier was to her. "I'm glad you see my point." she replied back to him.

"Do something unexpected for once Wolfgang." Nikolaus replied back at her. "Take a chance, because I'm actually going to keep that promise. It's up to you to either shove everything back in my face and actually leave and never come back. Or figure out that I'm not just throwing a bunch of words out there and really do want to be there for you. If you weren't so pig headed and for once could see past your own ego. I'm sure that you could be out of all of this mess." he huffed still steaming from her words. "And if you pick to leave I'll leave you with this bit of information. Know that the world is a cruel place, you only find people that really care every once in a while. Know that you have pretty much just slapped one across the face and stood there with a smirk on your face."