irock14363 wrote:BlackRose
"i can go check my room for Zia"She says softly
Calvin turned toward Blackrose, "It's okay, I think I should probably go, thanks though. I'm sorry for going all lecturey on you guys, it's just that I feel... everything... that everyone else is feeling, whether they're showing it or not, and it gets kind of overwhelming sometimes, makes me feel like it's my responsibility to make it all better," he said, smiling weakly. "I'm gonna go now, after that mushy confession, and see if I can find them, just to make sure they're alright. See ya," he said solemnly, and quickly left the cafeteria without another word.
Calvin knew people didn't like to be lectured, but he kept feeling the need to do it because he wanted to prepare them. He could sense what was truly behind Wolfer's solemn demeanor. He knew exactly what being a superhero was going to be like, and it wasn't going to be all fun and games; it was going to be harsh and ugly and deadly sometimes. And it scared him for his new friends. They were so innocent. Yes, some of them had already lost people they loved, some of them had been essentially parentless for most of their childhood, but none of them had yet been forced to see or do the mind-numbing things that Wolfer and the other superheroes had seen and done. He hated the thought of Melody or Violet having to go through that.
Or even myself! he realized, chuckling at his own admission of fear.
Calvin tried to push his fears and worries aside and enjoy his walk through the commons. It had turned out to be a beautiful day and he hadn't gotten to enjoy much of it yet. The sunbeams pushed through the thick tree cover and splashed the grass underneath with a thousand points of light. It was quite beautiful. Before coming here, he would have imagined swarms of invisible fairies dotting the earth sunshine-yellow with their bird-down brushes. But now such a fancy seemed frivolous, and somewhat irreverent. Calvin pushed on. He really had no idea where to find Melody or Zia, so he figured the best place to start would be the girl's dorm, but he wasn't even sure he would be allowed in.