i'm very gay, i'd like a few dollars

[zhongluc]

i have two people i'm not afraid to show affection to, and even with them i dial it back a bit, but with all my other friends i'm too nervous to show affection so it took me like two weeks to work up the courage to tell him i missed him because we haven't spoken in like 12 weeks besides snapchat streaks (kind of, he sends streaks and i just reply with a pic of huxley that's mostly it). even though i LOVE everyone i love all my friends and mutuals so much and i want to tell them every day but i'm too nervous

[zhongluc]

i keep thinking of things i wanna say to her but i don't want to bug her

[zhongluc]

did i do something to bother him i'm having an anxiety attack

[zhongluc]

i haven't been this anxious ... all year. it's been a bad day

[zhongluc]

talking to gray helped but i was nervous and thought i was annoying her for some reason?? i've almost never felt like that with her she always makes me feel safe idk and then i was supposed to babysit but jess cancelled last minute and a little later sent me a video of lily crying because she wanted me to come see her and that ... made me feel nice? wanted? i like feeling wanted
i'm actually having a really bad night

[zhongluc]

* **** ***

[zhongluc]

me, in bed, being sad yet again over how i've never been in a relationship and likely never will be because 1) im too scared to tell anyone i like them and 2) nobody wants to date me lmao

[zhongluc]

who is downtown abby

[zhongluc]

hoo boy working out left me Sore i can barely move my legs

[zhongluc]

huxley keeps STEPPING ON ME and lying in my lap and i love him but IM SO SORE