Been struggling for awhile now, I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. Talking to an unknown reader is about all I've got. I wish I had friends, but I'm too awkward and anxious. My characters are essentially my friends at this point. I literally have an entire page dedicated to just Delphi pen doodle because it brings me comfort. I hate being lonely, but being in a crowd is always too much. Especially when you can't put yourself out there. I can't imagine a future for myself and I live everyday in the now because I can't think of what's going to happen tomorrow. Existing sucks when you're too aware of yourself and your surroundings.
Feel free to ignore this as this is simply just me attempting to understand my feelings, I struggle to decipher my thoughts most of the time.